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| just_peachie (profile) wrote, on 9-21-2004 at 8:44pm | |
| Current mood: confused |
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| I don't know why I moved on so fast. Maybe I was scared. I was so in love with you, and all of a sudden, I just wasn't; as harsh as that sounds. I really didn't want it to be this way, I thought I would get over it, but I guess I was wrong. I'm not saying that it might not still happen, I just thought it would be sooner than this. We rushed into things, and I don't know why, but it took me almost 6 months to freak out. I did want all those things we talked about, but now I'm not sure if we're meant to be. We constantly bickered, and I was always having to nag on you to do this or do that. You broke pinkie promises, and you had such a bad temper. I tried to help, but all you did was tell me that you would do it, but didn't. And now, I needed my space, and you said fine, but you kept calling me and bugging me about it, and it just turned me off even more. I needed you to just say ok, and then not call me and tell me that we're meant to be and all that; i needed to be without you, but when i was talking to you, you were nagging me. It just pushed me away, and I tried to tell you that it would, but you didn't listen. The worst part of it is that I've been telling myself all my life that I would never change, because I saw what happen to those who love the morphing person. I used to think that it was awful that someone could do that. Now I hate myself even more. I've become what I hate. Every day it gnashes at me, and makes me more hurt and upset. I just don't know how to fix it, and go back to how we used to be. If I knew how to make it better, I would. |
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glitterkisses | 09-22-04 12:51pm I'm sorry things aren't going the way you want them to Amy..I don't really know how to help, or what to say to help becuase I've never even been in love, but I just hope you know I'm always here for talking, or listening, even just a big hug if you need it.
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