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moana (profile) wrote,
on 9-27-2004 at 1:29pm
Music: deftones - elite
Subject: when you're ripe
henrich ibsen is my new hero.

read hedda gabler.

books have got to be the greatest thing to ever happen to the world.

when i was a kid i started reading everything i could get my hands on. by second grade i was done with beverly cleary and betsy byars. so i wanted bigger better books. by fourth grade i'd read 7 shakespeares, ivanhoe, 12 mercedes lackey books, moby dick, jane eyre, little women, pride and prejudice... creepy little kid, huh?

picture little faygo, sitting on a minature rocking chair, feet won't reach the floor, reading a book bigger than my head.

it happened every day for years.

my brother thought i was sick. he yelled at me, then went whining to my mom that i wasn't right in the head. "what kinda kid sits in her room and reads for fun? why won't she go to her friends' houses? why won't she watch TV?"

the more he wanted me to be like him, the more i wanted to read. i've always been stubborn.

the truth is...

i wanted to be smarter than my brother. i thought if i was smarter than him, i might have a chance, might be a worthy competitor for the love, affection and attention of our parents. my father noticed, and he taught me other things, things i didn't learn from reading my books. somehow, my brother was still ahead. so i read even more.

it didn't work. oh well.

eventually, i figured out that i wasn't gonna get what i was after by reading. so i started figuring, i have to start looking for answers. and when i figured that, i figured, i need some questions. and so it began.

questions. my whole life revolves around questions. in everything i do, everything i say, i always have questions. and the more questions i came up with, the easier it got for me to find my answers in the world of literary giants. and i won't stop asking my questions. answers mean nothing if you didn't ask the question.

i found a lot of answers. not just in literature like the kind i stuck to as a kid, but elsewhere. i can listen to other people, and i can learn what i want to learn from them. most of the time i seem kinda spaced out, but i still listen.

i love it when other people, people around me, also have questions. if i have the answers they're looking for, i can share them. if i share the questions, then we can look for answers together. i'm not very good alone, it seems. i never really thought about that.

books.

i love books because

the truth is

books give me questions. they make me want to look for answers. books won't make me smart, books won't make me loved, books won't make me special. they'll just make me want to learn. then they'll help me learn, because even when we're looking for answers, books won't give them to us, they'll just sort of, tell us where to find them.

books. they're the greatest thing to ever happen to this world.
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metalhead

09-28-04 8:42am

picture little faygo, sitting on a minature rocking chair, feet won't reach the floor, reading a book bigger than my head.

1. Your feet still don't touch the floor. And you KNOW I'm not being sarcastic. They DON'T.

2. You have a big head.

3. Yay for books.

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moana

Re:, 09-29-04 2:20am

hey! laurence says i have a very nice shape for a head.

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cowboy67

Re: Re:, 09-29-04 5:00pm

picture little faygo, sitting on a minature rocking chair, feet won't reach the floor, reading a book bigger than my head.

hehe little faygo. i wanna see pictures.

and yes, your head is fine.


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moana

Re: Re: Re:, 09-29-04 5:47pm

pictures are posted vanden boom! are you online? *poke poke*

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cowboy67

Re: Re: Re: Re:, 09-29-04 7:05pm

i'm at work right now, i'm on woohu chat. are you around, boarki? *squints through binoculars*

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Anonymous

ac, 09-28-04 9:28am

Agreed.

Oh my, you'd be so lucky if 'books' was an impromptu topic, you'd rape them.

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moana

Re: ac, 09-29-04 2:20am

pith. i'd rape them anyway. *does ghetto things*

speaking of copying machines...

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Anonymous

ac on copying machines, 09-29-04 10:06am

They're, like, so totally COOL. Gee whiz! The 20th century is awesome. -insert toothy grin-

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Anonymous

Barney, 09-28-04 1:47pm

Didnt you first start reading Austin and Bronte last year? O.o

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moana

Re: Barney, 09-29-04 2:19am

i only read jane eyre back then, and i to this day refuse to read austen. ew.

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guajiragoddess

Re: Re: Barney, 09-29-04 9:12pm

CALLING LAURENCE!

Come in Laurence....

Do you see how I am constantely put into situations where I have to defend our buddy Jane Austen?

Goodness we need Virginia Woolf over here to help us out.

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cowboy67

Re: Re: Re: Barney, 09-30-04 5:29pm

*sings*

"i don't wanna goooo to the stuuuupid ballroom... i would ratherrrrr wrriiiiite a booook!"

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guajiragoddess

Re: Re: Re: Re: Barney, 09-30-04 7:13pm

lmao

we had a whole crew at my house for our panel project! hair & makeup, camera crew........

wasn't that where you broke my mom's china tea cup?

DANI: Hey, don't break that cup, its my mom's favorite.

LAURENCE: Come on Dani, it's not like I'm gonna drop it on the floor when I'm done with it.

*crash*

DANI: *nostrils flare*

And you wonder why I have trust issues? Why I have to ask things three or four times? Reassurance?

Haha you know I love you, besides, who needs real china?

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Anonymous

Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Barney, 10-01-04 4:37am

Jane Austen kicks! ^_^
so do The Smashing Pumpkins.
Books are tiny... people think i dont read serious ones but i really do!
when i'm not reading archie comics.

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