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| Anytngbtordinary (profile) wrote, on 9-28-2004 at 7:13pm | |
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| Mind if i cry out in pain in frustration? Well I'm going to. Its my journal. Not that my crying will do anything....especially in situations where things can't be changed...you feel like theres no where to move. I shouldnt of watched the movie. Its so...amazing...but i shouldnt of watched it. I shouldnt watch it. Have you ever thought about what would have happened if you had done something a little bit differently? Of course... i think just about every one does...but i mean...wondering what would have happened say if you... snuck out of your house when you were grounded or in the middle of the night to see someone or something. How much of a difference would that make? Would it make you realize anythign new? Just cause more problems? Probably yes to both. It just seems like my whole life right now has become memories...what with the movie, psychology we are talking about the mind and memories and what happens if part of your brain is damaged and how you could lose your short term and or long term memories. Then of course i'm just letting myself be overcome by them. I'm at a point right now where even good memories have gone bad. By that I mean...they all lead to something bad and crappy eventually. This movie is getting me to think too much. Yeah so... I think i'm going to apply for a college far away. I hope that one day i look back on how im acting and just laugh...and not feel anything. I hope that all this...all these stupid feelings and crap will just become something for me to laugh at. One day all of this will mean nothing. Right? "I'm just a fucked up girl who is looking for my own peace of mind." I like that. I think I'm like her in some ways. I'd totally do that and act like that and say those types of things... This probably won't be up long...so leave comments if you wish. They can be anonymous as well...I'd like to see what you all are thinking or hear some advice or just any thing. Thanks.' ~Jackie |
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| Anonymous | 09-28-04 9:53pm Memories are mean. I hate remembering crap that I never wanted to and stuff...and ah! It just makes you even more crazy!
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| Anonymous | 09-29-04 4:51pm memories destroy me... but at the same time, they keep me alive... i hate my memories... but at the same time, without them, i wouldn't have the strength to go on. There are some memories which i want to completely erase. But they always come back. I'm always reminded of that which brings me pain, and I loathe my memories for that reason.
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Anonymous | 10-01-04 1:49pm これを理解できれば私が時々そのような悪い気分になぜ入るか最終的にすべて理解する。私は孤独な である。そして私はそれのための自分自身を憎む。私はだれも私のためにまだ落としていない、もう均一でない試みることのための自分自身を憎む事実を自分自身の責任にし。私はすべてで与え、運命をどうかして介入したい。私* 時間* I がかつてだったものの及び私が最終的にである幸せ来たが、それはすべて私ように焦がされた残物離れてそして残下ったが、と私が考えた時があった。私は私が私の新しい自己を憎む私の古い自己を憎む。* 憎悪* 私の唇にたくさん最近ある。これは私の生命の真実かなり悲しげにである。私は実際にほしいと思うものが知っているか。おそらく既にこれを知っているが、それにまだ打つために持っている。私は愛にありたいと思う。それはそこにすべてあるである。そしてずっとそれを見つけるために私はそう懸命に戦っている。しかし何もそれおよび意志のおそらく決して来ない。そこに。私はそれを言った。今知っている。さようなら。
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Anonymous | Re:, 10-01-04 6:00pm I agree with anonymous above...
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Anytngbtordinary | Re:, 10-02-04 2:02am whoa...what does that say???? Does my computer not get read that font or something or was it just a joke? |