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musicalbabe (profile) wrote,
on 9-29-2004 at 3:19pm
I've been in one of those 'Idon'thaveanythingtoupdateabout' modes, so sorry to all of you people who read my blog to procrastinate! Nothing all that update-worthy has been happening recently.

In general, I'm dissapointed with sophomore year. Last year was just so much better in many different aspects. Marching band was waayyy cooler and I was super excited to be in Girls' Ensemble. I also respected the upper choirs a whole lot more than I do now. I thought that getting into Concert Choir was like a huge accomplishment and G21 was a far-off fantasy, but now I feel like Concert Choir isn't even all that good and Girls 21 is just frustrating. Last year I had an easy A in Bio and World Studies, but now MEHAP and Chem are going to be a struggle. Somehow I think classes were just more fun in general last year. Yeah, and that's not even mentioning how convenient it was that I developped a huge crush right at the beginning of the year so I had a date to homecoming that actually meant something! I don't even LIKE anyone this year, much less do I think I'll even have a date. At best, I'll probably get asked by someone I don't really want to go with and have to decide whether or not it's worth it at all.

I'm really not as unhappy as it sounds, but it's just SUCH a contrast from my crazy, optimistic view of high school that I had last year at this time. It was so exciting to wake up every morning and get to go to marching band. I couldn't wait for the day to begin. Now I complain about how it's completely dark when I wake up in the morning and bitterly look around and think that, out of all of the people in my family, I'll have the hardest time getting through the day. What does my mom have to do? Go to work, which, as she describes it, consists of talking with the other girls in her office and getting the treasury stuff for Band Boosters done. They also randomly watch movies and go out instead of actually sitting and working. What does Brian have to do? Basically nothing. He sits at home all day and works on the bathroom that's being built and writes his little sci-fi book or whatever. Boy, that sounds stressful. The cats get to sleep and lick each other all day, and the bird gets to chew on his little toys and be annoying. The tortoise eats and then pretty much does nothing. I know I'm being completely selfish when I say this, but I really feel like I have the most work to do and the least amount of fun packed into my life compared to the rest of my family. I have to suffer through boring classes, take numerous tests, stress out about all of the homework I have to finish, and get good grades.

I'm such a bitter, stressed, selfish little girl. It'd be better if I just had some time to relax...

Good news! A hot guy transfered into my PE class! He's really nice and he's a junior. Very cool. Unfortunately, I think I'm only going to take 4th period PE 1st quarter. Oh well. At least I have someone to look forward to seeing every day.

I think it's homework time. I have a voice lesson soon-ish and yeah. So much for a comical entry! Sorry guys!
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Anonymous

Ah!, 09-29-04 7:25pm

YES! FINALLY AN ENTRY TO READ DURING PROCRASTINATION! THANK YOU MELISSA!
Okay, so I really should be doing MEHAP because I only have like 3 more questions to answer, but this is IMPORTANT.
So I think the reason you're bummed this year is because you think it's going to be as exciting as last year. And let's face it, it's not. The upperclassmen aren't as cool because there's less of an age gap (well, the seniors I know are still supe cool, b ut obviously you don't like the sisnging ones as much) So I know it's not exciting, but you have to make your own fun. Like when you finish a MEHAP assignment do something short but fun, like reading a chapter of a funny book or listening to really good music. Then think "okay, as soon as I get Chem done, I can do that again!" that's what I do. And it's not supe de duper fun, but it's more fun than slaving away for hours. How do you think I get through three or fours hours of homework a night?
I totally understand what you mean about the whole "I have to work the hardest" I noticed yesterday that overall, I work the most hours out of everyone in my family. Well, maybe not everyday, but on average I think I'm beating my parents. And I probably won't even go to as good as a college because it's harder now. But when you're thinking "This is SOOO unfair" just remind yourself that it'll be over soon. I seriously doubt you'll have French homework all your life.
Anyway, I hope that somehow helped (or somehow made sense... i've been writting too much. I've written like 4 pages worth of stuff already and I haven't finished my homework yet.... carpal tunnel syndrome here I come!)
So relax! You'll be okay! And just remind yourself that senior year is going to be smooth sailing after first quarter excpet for that whole waiting for the stupid letter thing. But other than that, you have a whole semester to chill!

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09-29-04 8:13pm



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Anonymous

09-29-04 9:46pm

you just wait until junior year, things really get fun! You have a messed up 178 pages to read and take notes on US history and a test on 8 chapters the following day, not to mention having tons of physics and the now AP english class. So yeah. In a way, it does make your year seem a little happier doesnt it? Enjoy it while you can.
-Fran

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iwish2bemilkywhite

Re:, 09-29-04 10:21pm

YESSS FOR BITTERNESS.

even though i'm totally the opposite now. last year pinewood was totally embittering, but this year it's definitely looking up. i look forward to most of my classes this year instead of dreading them all.

hahahahaha your bird makes me laugh. <3

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