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| xonixieox (profile) wrote, on 9-30-2004 at 5:05pm | |
| Current mood: depressed Music: none Subject: lately i have been really depressed.. |
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| well i dont really know why i am writing in here becasue theres really no point.. the people who look at it dont read it and the people who do read it are the ones that i either dont know or dont like... so i guess that this journal is just for me so i can let all my feelings out.. so anyways i have been really depressed lately and i dont know why.. i have been crying myslef to sleep for a week and a half straight now.. i cant sit by myself in a quiet room for more than like 5 mins. or else i think about everything and start crying.. like right now... and i have to go to this counceling thing on tuesday and get prescribed on some stupid medication.. so i cant even relieve my stress cuz i gotta go their.. even tho its a fucking early release day and i dont have practice.. i dont wanna go to that ayside place.. i just dont wanna go.. they are only gunna tell me what i already know... but w/e... anyways so i tried to call cristina and she didnt answer.. os i imed her, but she texted me back saying she had to go.. she obv. doesnt wanna talk to me becasue she sed she would call and she never did.. am i a bad friend or something? whatever.. i guess im not even gunna make another attempt... i dont even wanna have a party anymore... whats the point.. to sit there when all my friends have fun... im not gunna have fun.. i havnt had fun in weeks... anyways today in cooking traci and kim didnt let me do anything.. again... i think im just not gunna go to that class anymore.. i dont really enjoy sitting on my ass and watching people cook... people were pissing me off all day... and at least last period kelsry made me kinda happy... thank you kelsey.. you always make me smile when i need it.. and lately i need it alot! not like anyone is reading this anyways but if you are reading it kelsey i love you.. and theirs not many people i can say that for right now..... thank you... anyways i really just want to die so i dont have to deal with all this shit... i guess im just gunna go sit in my room and think some more now.... -Nikkie |
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| Anonymous | 09-30-04 6:41pm Nikke I always read your journal and I always wanna know everything about you. I miss you so much and you have no idea how much I love you. I`m sorry if you have been having a hard time lately, but I know how you feel and I`m here for you if you need anything. And of course you`re not a bad friend.. you are absolutely amazing and please let me know if you need anything. I like owe you my life and you are my everything. xOx. Becca<33* |
krazykelc1 | Re:, 09-30-04 7:42pm I love you nicole I'm glad I made you smilee |
xonixieox | Re: Re:, 10-03-04 9:31am true true i love you kelsey and becca (for the comment before) |
| Anonymous | 10-01-04 11:07pm Nikki! i love u so much..dont b sad! rememeber u make me happy :) so ill try n do the same. "i almost got bit by a spider...in texas" haha ya u were born in natick ;) haaa alla out practices shud b like that! n watchin me n kimi snort up benadryl..hwo much better can it get! well i love u n if u need me u KNO im here!--cait<3 |
xonixieox | Re:, 10-03-04 9:29am ahahahahahha that was the BEST practice of my life.. except spell my name right biotchhh! lol... i love you cait!! |
lilkristen | 10-02-04 8:36pm hey, im kristen.. just wonderinn if you could post all the icons again? i used to take a few once in awhile lol and im lookin for a new one<3 lol.. or you can email me them.. blindedbytears2x@aol.com.. i'd really appreciate it.. thanks! |
xonixieox | Re:, 10-03-04 9:30am i have sooooooo amny that i cant post them all... im me at xNikkie 435x for the link to my photobucket! |