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xsilentxsuicidex (profile) wrote,
on 10-2-2004 at 10:36pm
Current mood: Alone.
Music: Hatebreed- A call for blood
Subject: Just great.
Wow...

Just got back from Andrew's party. I met Blake and Neil, they're pretty cool. We just hung around... Played Soul Calibur II and Gundam... Then we watched Resident Evil...

This is where the fun begins.


So it started off great... We were all making fun of the movie and stuff- like we always do... I got to sit with Andrew for a while, but then people slowly started going upstairs... It got to the point where it was only Rhianna, Aisha, Doug and I... So Rhianna Aisha and me went upstairs to see what they were doing...

Keely told me to go away. I know I'm probably overreacting, but Hell... I hadn't seen her in a long time... Fuck, I haven't had an actual conversation with her in God only knows how long...

I don't know what it was, be it my unstable emotions, or just something that had built up, but it hurt.... Badly.

I've always had this feeling of unwantedness... I've always separated myself from people for as long as I can remember. People have never accepted me. Not even in my elementary school days. Last year was the first time I had an actual friend, and now most of the friendships I've built up are falling apart...

Maybe I'm meant to be alone.
Maybe I'm not meant to be here at all...

I miss you all... so much.

I haven't really been myself lately... and I'm so sorry...

I'll change, I swear. All I want is acceptance.. All I want is to be loved.




Gomen nasai.
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Anonymous

Rhianna, 10-12-04 8:45pm

We love you Dana. People love you more than you know. Your still more popular than me and probably more popular than I will ever be.

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