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| Twitchy (profile) wrote, on 10-8-2004 at 12:38am | |
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| here I am again ... and I think it's time to look at my life in some detail alot's changed in the last year, and I'm waiting for it to settle down, but it won't will it? Luaren, Gabe, Amelia, Pat, Kira, Saki, Tayla, Morgan Ly., ... a hell of alot of people I won't go on with names, they've all seen fit to grace my life be it in cameos or to stay, and I wonder why people hang around me, I'm fairly negative Mr. Kenlein has called me, jokingly, "The luckiest guy in the freshman class" ... heh, like all the girls said to him, "he's like a girl" well ... here we are, I know some more people. I'm not so pessimistic, I've got a set idea of what I think, I think that's an improvment, got longer hair, lankier, I think that's an improvemnt, so in general through backbreaking labor I've been able to better myself but there are times I look at myself and I look at the world around me and I think I'm just a shell really, I don't know who I am, I don't know who this person is. I don't know what I want, what I need, what I'm gonna do. And sometimes I feel like all the progress I've made, all I've done, is like water in fragil glass suspended over an emmense fall what you see is the glass, and then ... I feel like I'm falling sometimes, like sometime I'll just break and I won't be able to do this anymore, to deal with life and keep myself stoic, be happy sometimes I try so damn hard not to be sad, not to be sad about me, I try so damn hard to get over my pain, but I guess I hurt too, still I guess I gotta keep it together, failure is not an option, I literally cannot fail in this part of life, can't fall, and if I can't I never will right so I'll hold onto this thread and keep a grip, be some sort of a rock if you need me or not, because I think that's what drives me, that's what keeps me going, being able to be there for all of you, my friends, I love you all, very much ... and I just want to be able to be there to help you, you're all I need, I just want to be there to help you when you fall, to get you back up, to help you see some light, to cheer you up or to just be that solid, funny guy you go to, that's what keeps me going, being there for all of you as long as I have you all ... as long as you all hurt, and I can help you in any way, I'll keep myself together, even when it's all better for all of you, you'll never deal with my collapse, I won't let me bring you down, I'll stay together for all of you much love to all my friends, the new and the old |
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independenttruckergrl | 10-08-04 10:00am Don't fall..
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| independenttruckergrl | Re:, 10-09-04 12:41am I have your pen.
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shroudofrain | Then who is going to be there for you?, 10-08-04 6:04pm Hey, you are a great person. Everyone has bad times and good times. This just happenes to be one of your bad times emotionaly at the moment. You are there for everyone like me. So, sense we are in this together I guess you could say, Ill be here for you. Your like me in a lot of ways, like you love to help people out. Being a rock, in a way, is what keeps you and I going. And sense we are in this together....... we have to help one another. So therefore I will always be here for you Mark Hay. I always will....... whether you need me or not. Ill be your rock when you are everyone elses. And in doing so I could try and equilize the weight you bare so that you can have a lighter lode then what you have been carrying. Im here for you just as much as I am there for everyone else Mark, remember that. You take care of yourself. And Ill try to do the same. |