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| mudpiegrl (profile) wrote, on 10-16-2004 at 8:13pm | |
| Current mood: pessimistic Music: the soothing sounds of the dryer Subject: can i just give up? |
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| Recently, everything's been frustrating to the point where i just want to give up. The easiest would be Chuck E. Cheese. It takes more time than i have and im not planning on going anywhere near food service when im older, hence the pointlessness. I also want to submit to jen. i hate being swept around but she wont see my side (which is not to spend more time with me than mushroom) and i feel like ive lost her already, which, i guess is good. i t wont be as hard when she leaves for college and i get stuck at CLC. Neil would be the hardest. It'd be easier to get over rather than a sort of withering away. It seems like hed rather just get on with his life there rather than worry about my critisisims and hesistations. he wouldnt have to hold himself back on anything for me. yet i love him so much. i actually feel like he cares for me as much as i do him, all the while feeling as if he cant wait to get rid of me. i suppose even a tree grows attached to moss that decays it. |
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Toki | 10-18-04 6:59am Are you really going to give up because things aren't easy? Some of the best things in life aren't easy, but that doesn't mean you should give them up. Work...I have no say in. Because I have teh same attitude. But Neil...How do you know he wants it to end? Would he find it easier? How do you know that he really doesn't want to stay true to you? How do you know that you're holding him back? You may have reasons. He might have said something or led you to believe something, but you've seen what happens when people try to take teh "easy way out" and end up just messing things up worse.
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