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| silentcriez (profile) wrote, on 10-18-2004 at 6:08pm | |
| Music: only you x ashanti Subject: hummm |
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| i stayed home from school today.. i didnt feel good and just needed to rest.. i hate mondays i cant describe how i feel right now..idk what it is but i feel like somethings missing maybe its the fact that everything is changing? maybe its the fact that i dont talk to half of the people i used to.. idk i mean it feels good to make new friends.. but what happens when im sick of meeting new people and just want my old friends back.. i dont know.. i dont want the winter to come i dont wanna be sad.. i dont wanna be alone and i dont want things to be different anymore... i just want to sing.. and i just want to do something with my life.. life is so short and i dont want to waste it.. idk what the hell im rambling about i just needed to get all this shit out.. not like anyone actually reads it or anything once again ive been caught in the same infamous situation.. me wanting somebody i know i shouldnt have.. fucking shit up and realizing i cant have them.. and then leading someone on i should like.. could be happy with but cant force myself to be with.. idk how i get myself into these situations.. i miss my mom.. i miss having someone who actually cared.. i cant believe its been over a year now that shes been gone.. its still so unreal to me because i like to keep it out of my mind.. but the truth is that shes gone and never ever coming back into my life.. maybe someday ill become something that shell wish she never abandoned.. who knows.. - manda |
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| Anonymous | i love you amanda, 10-19-04 2:07pm That makes me so sad.. you know you always have me.. i love you amanda. you mean alot to me n when your upset it upsets me.. your the nicest person anyone could ever meet.. n i love you for that.. i know how your feelin babe.. but im always here to talk to.. I LOVE YOU AMANDA ELIZABETH MALTZ!:)
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silentcriez | Re: i love you amanda, 10-19-04 4:05pm i love you bunches <33 |