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| brownsugar (profile) wrote, on 11-15-2004 at 4:32pm | |
| Subject: wow I just realized something. |
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| I know it's kinda late to realize this but wow, I really am a anti social freak. Not in that way that oh yah ur a loser. In a way that I just realize I don't have anyone I'm close with. Anyone I can confide in. Anyone I can talk to when I'm sad, there is no one I trust. There is no one I believe in. There is no one I can call my best friend who I am able to call whenever and know that they won't hang up on me or call me a loser or just care. No one really cares about me in the love you get from a best friend. Yah, I pass by people in the hall ways and say hi to them, but there is no one who I could say i was actually "tight" with. No one I can classify as my best friend, no one I know will be there for me whenever and wherever I go .If I'm in trouble there is no one name I can say, saying I'm sure they'll be there to back me up or save me in a life perill. No one truly cares about me. And I'm not whinning about the fact. Or drowning over this fact. It's just that I am socially inept and just lonely. My name can never be put before anyone elses in anyone's eyes because they just don't like me more than anyone else. There is just no one I can truly trust to in moments like these and no one I can talk to. Because no one would bother to talk to me. I know people will say, oh please your misery is none in comaparison to mine, you'll never be as bad off as me. But at least you all feel as comfort with knowing you have some one to confide in in amoment of severe depression. I have no one, I have no misery when I say that. It's just a fact. I am alone in my travels, alone in my conquest, and alone in my tears. |
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hollishdanishm | 11-15-04 8:36pm Don't worry, so am I. It feels great to have that one person that you can just trust, and know is always there etc., believe me I've had it. My cousin is still sort of that, and we'll see if she still is when I move back.
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