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| xsilentxsuicidex (profile) wrote, on 11-17-2004 at 8:39pm | |
| Today just hasn't been my day. Got my progress reports. Did pretty well. Got an F in Science, though... Got rejected... Someone who means the world to me has started smoking regularly.... I've just been so exhausted. Sleep loss has been at an all-time high. I used to think this wasn't anything serious, but I might need to go see someone about it... I have really bad anxiety. I get so nervous, and I'm not even sure what about... At night, it's like I'm afraid to sleep or something... I don't know what it is... But I need it to stop. I feel sick. My train of thoughts is everywhere. Please excuse if this is somewhat hard to follow. I know these dumb little kid relationships are stupid, but I'm tired of feeling so alone... I wish life would throw shit at me in somewhat more frequent patterns, spreading it out, instead of throwing it all at once. I wish things would even out. I'm sick of always being such a fucking pessimist, but it's something I can't help. I've tried to look at the brighter side, but the darker side always overpowers it. You don't have to tell me how much better I have it than other people. I know that. I can't help the way I think. It's something I've tried to change, but failed. I wish I weren't such a fuck up. ..I wish I could exceed in something. |
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loserxdork | 11-17-04 9:15pm Ah sorry about your friend starting to smoke :(
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