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| xsilentxsuicidex (profile) wrote, on 11-21-2004 at 1:45pm | |
| Current mood: Alone. Music: Breaking Benjamin- So Cold Subject: |
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| I'm fucking sick of being alone.. I hate sitting here, on the verge of tears. I wish it wasn't so fucking hard for me to be happy. I wish I was beautiful... It seems my looks tend to be the center of my sadness. It's wrong to hate yourself, but it has been that way for me my entire life. Even in my care-free elementary school years, people taunted me, and called me fat or ugly on a daily basis. Hell, I even remember being called ugly in PRESCHOOL. This was the beginning of my downfall. It's sad, how something so seemingly innocent as a group of 8-year-olds can turn someone into a person like me... Being alone makes me feel like I am nothing. Being alone makes me feel ugly and unwanted. I want more than a day to go by where I don't have to fake at least one smile. It's pathetic. Why is it so fucking hard for me to be happy? |
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| Anonymous | poop i feel like poop, 11-22-04 9:24pm ppl picked on you two!..youd never think me,right..well.hell wrong.i was kicked at and pushed around.i cried nights.and counted the bruises
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