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| xsilentxsuicidex (profile) wrote, on 11-27-2004 at 1:10am | |
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| You know, it's times when you're up alone at 1 in the morning that you get to thinking. I've never really been wanted. People in general have never liked me. Never. Preschool and elementary school are supposed to be carefree days. I came home with bruises, scrapes, and bad memories. You're supposed to just be happy; Not care about what anyone else says or does. By the age of 7 I had and extremely low self-esteem. So many days went by when I came home crying. People always called me fat or ugly. Kids would push me into clover patches, and make me eat them. They'd push me down on the sidewalks. Why? I'm not sure. I dreaded going to school. Still do. My tears and screams of "I don't want to" or "Stop" never phased them. Nor did they reach the teacher's ears. This is the reason why I tend to stay away from crowded places. I fear humans. Since those days I've usually kept to myself, and never really tried to make friends with anyone, for fear that they would be like everyone else. Now things aren't quite as bad as then, but I still get made fun of occasionally. I just hate being out in public. I hate being seen. I just hate it when people get offended when I don't want to go places with them. "Are you embarassed to be seen with me?" No. Maybe if some of you read this entry, it will clear some things up for you... But not many people read this, so I guess this was somewhat pointless. Mijime Da. |
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| Anonymous | ggd, 11-27-04 8:15pm ...jesus dana..thats so sad..sounds like me two..came home w/bruises and cuts,and tears w/fears..teachers serisoulsly dont give a fuck..nor princables..you wonder why im so quiet?.heh..cuz of thoese same horribly nightmare years at elementary..those days haunt me now-a-days..dont ask why..jusr randomly pop in andmake me cry..wow dana,we have something in common more of..or..each day..er..i'll shut the fuck up now.is sunday ok,to get up/w?..cuz sat'not assss good..but i could still do sat if needed too..
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| Anonymous | look thers wings on your profile!..and not pad wings ethier.. O.o, 11-27-04 8:21pm haha..pad wings..haha..
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