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| xonixieox (profile) wrote, on 11-30-2004 at 7:25pm | |
| Current mood: depressed Music: frosty the snowman x my phone Subject: cheerleading |
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| ok so i was getting excited and i actually thought that i could make varsity and then at the first practice thing i realized that im dreaming an empty dream that will never come true.. honestly why not quit while im ahead! seriuosly im going to be on jv for the rest of my fucking life and its all becasue im fat ugly depressed and i am a fuck up! thats all it is! i dont even know if im going t go to the tryout on friday becasue i cant do it.. im just going to be on jv for my entire fucking life.. like i would fucking be excited if i made fucking alternate but thats not going to happen either because i suck!! i cant even believe im crying over this shit but it just means so much to me... cheerleading is really the only thing holding me together! on another lighter note!! if no one starts to comment im done with this journal.. i know people look at it and everything but if you dont start commenting its gone!! -Nik |
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xoxchubbyxox | 11-30-04 11:31pm hi nikkie, im so sorry you're feeling this way lately...i can sort of understand depression, and definitely sadness and it sucks...i know. you're not fat ugly or a fuck up either, i dont know how many times ive told you that but its true. i love you no matter what, i hope i get to see you...even if it takes a while. i got you your christmas present i only got a few this year but i think ull like urs.
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xonixieox | Re:, 12-01-04 6:38am thanks darien! it doesnt really help lol but thank you for at lease caring.. noone else does! i need a job becasue im soooo broke.. i dont know if i can even afford presents this year!
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xoxchubbyxox | Re: Re:, 12-01-04 3:26pm i know, im sorry im not there to help you, even if i could. i miss you too. i just wanted you to know that i care. |
xonixieox | Re: Re: Re:, 12-01-04 9:37pm aww i love you! i had such a better day today :) !! yay! okie dokies! bye babes.. me and britt are having a DANCE PARTY!! |