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| xsilentxsuicidex (profile) wrote, on 12-8-2004 at 9:19pm | |
| Well, I had written something that completely spilled my guts, that I put my heart into, but I'm not sure if I want him to read it anymore. Right now, I don't know how to feel. Maybe useless is the right feeling... Whenever I try to help anyone, they just shrug me off their shoulders. I'm fucking sick of people and their bad habits. Then again, maybe anger or sadness would be the proper emotion. Maybe all three. I fucking refuse to speak with anyone if they're intoxicated or under the influence of something anymore. I can't fucking take it. I'm sick of seeing the people I love fall apart because of this shit, and when I try to tell them that, they just forget it completely. I make no influence on them, because they think it's just fine. I hate fucking sitting here in tears, knowing what will happen, and not being able to fix it... To see someone you love so dearly becoming an addict, it gets to you. Just don't even fucking try to talk to me when you're messed up anymore. I wish it was easier not to care. I wish I could just forget about it still... Why do I care so much now? |
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blackecho101 | 12-09-04 7:43am um.... wow... just to let u know, you make a huge influence on me, thats why i havent done anything too bad in allmost 2 months... but anyways... im sorry. |
| Anonymous | ;_;, 12-09-04 9:07am eh..yea..was at concert..buh came late,and had to leave immediatly to pick sister up from dance.uggg..i so feel the love..thats why i was late..ug..didnt talk or see anyone i wanted too..its like shes taking overmy life!!!hehe..is guna get messy now...life w/out seeing dana and ppl,..is no life at all....YAY..he said youd had a great voice!woohoo..stupid mr reil..ugggg..my parents gave/give the same talk bout how i dress.."dress for success."er..um.."dress NICER(preppish of course what they meen) and maybe your grades will rise up!"..ahh..stupid ppl..dont know what they are talking bout..see you and i know what WERE talking bout,bout dressing..haha :D |
| Anonymous | 12-09-04 10:12pm Dana just hold in strong, and someday, you can get away from it all. Well just for a bit, then you can find enough courage and face it. I am sure you have tried... And, even though I totally donnt know ho wyour feeling, I can semi-relate to the intoxication issue. Like I said, stay strong. I am sure this has meant nothing, but just a thought... And, good singing tonight. You and the chorus and well the band kids. Nice seeing you for once, and cant wait till you visit me in high school
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