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greyXmatter (profile) wrote,
on 12-11-2004 at 4:18pm
Current mood: sick
Music: [Hands]
I hung out with Josh (Belverio) last night… wow. AWESOME. I’ve never done that outside of school before cause I never have time for anything, but for once, I did something for myself and went to the coffee house with Josh! Not with him, but I met him there. God, I love that kid with all my heart. We had so much fun… at least I did. We sat around for a while, listened to a few bands, then went outside cause it was hot as hell in that place… I had a spaz and ran around the school and back. …hm. I saw my friends, which was nice. One of my friends from Belvidere, (Won’t mention any names…) puked all over Katie’s shoe/pant leg and on my shoe. To say the least, it was probably the most disgusting thing I’ve ever witnessed. Yeah, I don’t get out much. But from such a small kid, that was a massive amount of vomit. Hm…

Oh, and for you fucking ass hole that was there last night, it’s none of your buisness. Now… a lot of you are sitting there with this look on your face like “What is she talking about?” You said it. You know. If you’re reading this, and you think I’m talking to you, I am. Learn some fucking respect, lady. You don’t ask someone something like that. Especially my best friend and especially after everything he’s gone through this week, whether you knew about it or not, common courtesy, you don’t ask someone that. Jesus Christ.

Wow that was a sudden mood change.
But I’m all good now.
Cause. It’s. Off.

Josh (Miller)’s mom was at my house today… twice. I love her, she’s such a hoot. Josh wasn’t with her, which was probably for the better, cause I was in my strawberry PJ pants and my plaids, no makeup and shitty hair. …eh. I don’t know guys, I really don’t know. There’s nothing more that I want but him, and he’s so distant. Why the fuck does he have to be so shy, and why the fuck do I have to be the same? It’s not working, I can’t talk to him, he has to talk to me. He won’t do it. He will. Not. Talk to me. Tiff’s like, “He came up to me today and told me to tell you that he wants you to talk to him because he really likes you.” And I’m all… “…” Because I can’t. I just wish he’d talk to me. I want him so bad, and I’ve never, EVER fell in love at first sight, and I never EVER expected it to happen, and it did, and now I sit here… waiting.

Wow.
All good now.
Cause… It’s off.

...ha.
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fadedxtears

12-11-04 11:27pm

asking josh if he was gay? is it a problem? she said it in a joking way, and he didn't show any anger of her asking him. i seriously don't think he cared. but i'm not him am i? Learn some fucking respect, lady. what the heck? you're a bitch to people too.

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greyXmatter

Re:, 12-12-04 10:07am

Josh is my best friend. You don't ask someone something like that. You have no idea what he's been through this week with that. Katie, you just... don't... ask people that. Even Rachel, of all people, was perturbed that you would ask someone that, to his face, after no less than an hour of knowing him.

I wasn't saying you were a "bitch". My post never mentioned that. Stop mis-quoting me. You're turning into another Taylor. So... What did I do that makes me a "bitch"? Besides the whole Taylor thing where, I wasn't a bitch, I was using plain logic. Something that Taylor doesn't quite understand yet.

Katie, believe me or not, that was a totally inappropriate thing to ask someone. Believe me... or not. I could not care less.

<3

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fadedxtears

Re: Re:, 12-12-04 3:21pm

I understand that he's your best friend. You were hanging on him like there was no tomorrow. And this may be nosie, and you don't have to reply, but what has he been through this week? Even Rachel, of all people, was perturbed that you would ask someone that, to his face, after no less than an hour of knowing him. Oh my god, Rachel was telling me he was gay. You people say things, but never confess to them.

Who was your post to? Brielle? Me? Or both? Brielle asked him this too. EW! ANOTHER TAYLOR? Yeah, I do misquote you more than I should, but another Taylor? Don't ever compare me and her ever again. That girl... uh. Do you know what she did to me? She told the whole 8th grade that I do drugs. You want to know why? Because I'm friends with Jesse Punsal. wtf? He's nice to me, and even though he does shit to Kelsey, he is my friend.

Okay. I am sorry I asked him if he was gay. He didn't seem to mind, because he would joke about it, yeah, it was really rude. Tell him I'm sorry tomorrow at school for me.

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greyXmatter

Re: Re: Re:, 12-12-04 7:36pm

It was to you, directly, and only you. You're the only one that I heard asking. It seems as though I'm overreacting, but I can't help but not, when part of my step brother's suicide was based on the torment of him being gay.

People joke about things, Katie, to hide how they really feel. I do it all the time. Take obese people, for example. So many of them make fun of themselves in front of other people, to make those people think that it's okay to make fun of them, and it's okay to be that way. ...When it's not. Same with gay, bisexual, or lesbian people. Many of them do it at some point. Josh is just fed up with everyone asking, poking fun, and just plain being assholes about it.

Rachel is a very hypocritical girl, I suppose then. When we got home from the Coffee House, Rachel did in fact bring up that it was rude that people were asking him this kind of thing.

As for what went on this week, I'm not going to type it on a public journal. That in itself, is rude.

Apologies for putting you in the same catagory as Taylor.
If she's done this to you, I suppose inviting her to the concert would be a sin.

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allmysinsx

12-12-04 4:10pm

oh my god
you were talking about rachel?
i was flipping out because i thought you were referring to me.

but look.. i didnt straight out ask him if he was gay
hes like " ya, everyones been saying im gay"
and im like.. " are you?"
and hes like " no"

so i guess you were talking about rachel?
and if you were talking about me
im really sorry.. and i didnt mean to upset you

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greyXmatter

Re:, 12-12-04 7:37pm

You're fine kid.

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Anonymous

12-13-04 7:33pm

please dont do this to my fragil heart

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greyXmatter

Re:, 12-13-04 8:50pm

Anonymous, who are you, and who are you talking to?

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