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| xsilentxsuicidex (profile) wrote, on 12-13-2004 at 8:01pm | |
| Current mood: Fuck. Music: Brand New- The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows Subject: Andrew. |
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| Well, yeah. Today was good, up until about 5 mniutes ago. Graded how we did in the concert for chorus. Made brownies in Mrs. Yeoman's... Went outside for Mrs. Johnson's. Mr. Moore is always lax. Then Mrs. Connor's class was sooo funny. John was just like "pubic hair" right when it got quiet, and Megan goes... "Would you like to tell the teacher what you just said?" and the fire alarm went off. :) Then, in Mrs. Glasgow's, we had a sub. It was great. My class is fucking crazy. I'll probably be in trouble tomorrow, though. Got home, talked on AIM for a bit, and when I went downstairs to clean the kitchen, Carlos called! We watched SpongeBob, haha. It was great. Then, we went to dinner at Friday's. There was a weird lady wearing a green boa and reindeer antlers, and a shirt that said "vixen". She was like late 40's-early 50's... it was weird. She kept staring at me, and I kept looking back at her all wide-eyed. Then Carly, Calvin, Eli and my dad left me. So I rode home with mom, and talked to her about how things are going with school and stuff... Then, I talked to Andrew. I haven't seen him in weeks, and well, I've had quite a few dreams about him lately. So, I told him. And his response was, "Oh, you do realize I'm back with my ex, don't you?" Well, no one had told me this. He completely misinterpreted what I meant about having dreams about him... Ugh, I can't believe him, though. No "I miss you, too" or anything. Just "Me and Blake are together again". I don't like him anymore, but it does hurt. All that time of "I'll never get close to anyone ever again" and "I'm not going to be with another woman all through High School" stuff, and rejecting me because of it... It really kind of made my heart sink. Whatever. I'm just going to start getting people out of my life. Like Michael- I don;t belive I'll ever speak with him again, unless he iniciates the conversation. Right now, I don't even care about my CDs still being with him. Sure, I thought he was such a great friend, but he's so deceptive... (Michael, if you read this, then talk to me about it. I have alot to point out to you, my friend. There's a 1 to a million chance that you'll read this, though.) ...And Andrew. He just makes no effort to be my friend anymore. I try to start conversations with him, but he just never responds. And he never opened up to me. I spilled my heart to him, and he never told me anything about him. These people are very special to me, and I will never forget them, nor will they leave my heart. I just can't take being caused so much pain, I really can't. It brings me to tears that I'd just stop talking to them completely, but I've lost all hope. I give up. Are you fucking happy? I need to talk to John. Bitch never updates his woohu. Nor does he comment in mine. ;_; Well, fuck. Time for me to actually get some homework done... =/ |
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| Anonymous | gg, 12-14-04 5:31pm hmm...yes...ive got that solution too..and it works dana!it works!.."let no one in.".guys or girls..friendship/more..and dana..does it feel good,to not actually care for ppl..buh your on my "let in" list..;) hehehe....awww...wish there wasnt any other danas in your class..dude..dana..i swear..we've got to talk bout getting revenge on MOST if not ALL the ppl who insult you...you know how fun that would be??fuckin great..like at a skool dance doo somthing...weee...FUN!!~bethany |