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| brownsugar (profile) wrote, on 12-20-2004 at 1:15am | |
| Music: waiting line- zero 7 Subject: I'm so depressed and I don't know why |
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| It just always hits me at the wrong times. I have ADD and can't concentrate on my work. I'm never going to suceed in anything am I? No one will ever take me seriously. No one will ever see me for who I am. I'm just that girl that you can go ahead and use, yah go ahead she won't care. Well sometimes people have to understand I have a heart too. I hate it when people never call you and they only call you to get information out of you. That's the only reason they ever do call. No one wants to call you just to talk to you, or to be a friend that's there to talk to you. I rarely get calls now from people who just want to say hi, besides dorina of course, but I mean I just hate when people call just to use you. I know I've probably done that loads of times, but come on.. there's a point when it's just overdone. I don't want people to be my friend just to get something out of me, I want people to be my friend because they want to be my friend. It's so hard to find some one who'll see you for you, who'll appreciate you for you and will do something for just you, not for themselves. I have so many flaws and when I see all those people who life comes so easily for I feel this tingling to want it to be that easy for me. For it to come that easily to me. Some people are just so lucky, why aren't I that lucky? Why do I have to linger? And, furthermore, why do I have to wait and wait for some one to see me for me. Hope is so overated. It really gets you nowhere. Yah so, you pray everynight for something, you think in your mind "if I keep faith the thing that's meant to be will happen" but it never does happen. What then. All that hoping, what'd it get you but false hopes? Nothing, exactly. I'm just wasting my time in the waiting line. I always let myself get into this state. but WHY. Why do I let myself go so down into that utter put hole that I can never leave. I hate it. SO MUCH. NO ONE CARES ABOUT ANYONE BUT THEMSELEVES! |
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hollishdanishm | 12-21-04 4:48pm I used to call you to talk for no reason!! But... There is that ocean now, lol hope I can talk to you soon.
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