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| Current mood: Stressed, tired, head-achy Subject: Ze omg ._. Just what one needs during exams week |
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| Kandles500: I don't think me and naomi are friends anymore y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Heh, after what you said about all three of us, I doubt I want to be friends with you, too Kandles500: well, you ca't forget that naomi and jen said the same things whether or not she decided to tell you that y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I guess I could understand, the posse is allowed to have little spats, even though they were totally uncalled for in the first place. But you, Amanda, have sunk to resorting to telling OTHER people this Kandles500: these other people don't like you guys and say the same things, so if I agree with them how is that telling them otherwise? and you didn't even want me to be part of the "posse" at the very beginning you didn't like me and I still don't think you do. I have many examples of why I think this, in fact for all the things I've said I have proof. y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Mhmm, why wouldn't I want you to be part of the Posse? Quite frankly, I loved the thought of new members. Maybe you thought I didn't want you because, at the time, I was quite intimidated by your presence, but not for ONE SECOND after I got to know you did I doubt you, Amanda. Kandles500: you never seemed to accept me. it seemed like to be part of the group a Kandles500: I had to ask your permission Kandles500: You are the leader of the posse emily y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I think it's co-owned Kandles500: Every decision is left up to you eventually you have the final say even if you ask and consult other people Kandles500: and it shouldn't be owned at all, we should all just be friends, not some sort of government or social heirachy y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I don't believe in a government posse, it is all just friends. In a group. Called the posse because that means a group of friends. I never thought I was the leader and maybe a few decisions were left up to me because they involved my house or something of the sort, but I didn't believe we were some organization. Kandles500: that's how I felt, everyone in the posse looked to you for almost everything invluding the admittance of a new member, and I never really felt accepted by you as I said before, you seemed to be suspicious of me and very judgemental y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: At first I was. I'm very suseptible to taunting and bullies scared me. You silent reputation preceded you and it scared me easily, not to mention you looked like you kicked my ass if I ever said something a bit wrong, but people's opinions change, especially after they learn more about said being. It was very judgemental, but could you not see it from my eyes if a girl of your strength started hanging around you? I didn't even know your name for a while. Kandles500: but I as in the same position as you. easily prone to taunting. my whole life I was made fun of for how I looked, that's probably why I had a reputation, because after a while I gave in to the bullies and became one myself only to protect myself never to purposely hurt anyone, and I was intimidated by you, everyone liked you you had such great charisma. y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Ugh, I was a stupid-face. Kandles500: you see emily, I like you and I want to be friends with you, it's just little squirmishes that I don't tell you that bother me that bring us to this, I still want to be friends with you I just want you to know how I feel about some of the things you do y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I am exactly the same, and I don't really appreciate being called a bitch and a poser. You see, calling Naomi and I such things might score you points with the older crowd, but not with the one you had before them. Unfortunately, this mishap has really hurt my feelings, for I thought you would atleast stand up for me, but apparentally you didn't. Now, I don't know if you were talking about Jade as well, if you were, that's REALLLY stupid, but whatever.. That's what you do, apparentally. Kandles500: but I thought being mad at you would make the whole posse mad at me, so I didn't mention it y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: You should of just told me you didn't like me instead of putting me through the he-says-she-says Kandles500: NO! I never frickin called you or jade a poser and a bitch. I called naomi a poser and a bitch to someone who already thought that. But emily sometimes people don't handle confrontations well. I do like you, though sometimes you make me mad. I still want to be your friend and please make sure you've heard both sides of the story before you start accusing people y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I beg of you, fill me in on how Naomi is a poser? Kandles500: I don't know if yopu'll understand and I doubt you'll agree but here goes y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Mmkay Kandles500: last year she didn't wear any black or chains or skulls or anything like that, things I will unfortunately have to label as gothic, but then suddenly, she wore black and chains and skulls and started being pouty all the time and tried to be friend s with more gothic people, liking only gothic guys when she used to like people like bill. she just changed from being naomi, who was an individual to being some goth girl that I don't think I know. just what she used to like and act like and be like to someone y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I see. y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Mayve she just thought it was time for a self-make-over? Kandles500: I don't even know, and I know people change but hse did a whole personality adjustment that just isn't the kind of make-over you're talking about. cuz at home she's still like she used to be but at school she's completely different Kandles500: It's like she only acts like that to impress people or to fit in y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Maybe she is trying to fit in? y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Who isn't? y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I'm sure you really only agreed with the older people to fit in, right? Kandles500: my mom tells me that I'm too upfront with people, always asking them how they feel about me and confronting them about issues, so I stopped because I didn't want to push them away, but I felt like it made the friendship weaker. Kandles500: and no I didn't do it to fit in, I didn't even understand naomi when she told me who told her so I can't really say but if it's who I think it is then that was one person who already hated naomi and said she was a bitch and a poser before I did, I only stated what I felt at the time because I do believe naomi is somewhat of a poser unless she can prove me wrong and she is a bitch even she says that people think she's a bitch, I know I can be a bitch sometimes, everyone can. Just at this moment in time, Kandles500: I really don't feel like she's my friend even before I said those things.she was much more distant than she used to be and it always seemed like she was mad at me y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: She said she grew a bit more annoyed with you because you, yourself, became isolated. You felt her distance because she was picking up the same distance from you, in turn, you both split like Pangaea. Her brother told her that the group was talking, and Cecilia lives right behind her. She feels Cecilia doesn't have the right to judge because she doesn't know Naomi. Kandles500: that's true but I do know her and I've witnessed alot and gone through some much shit with naomi, I have many examples of how much of a bitch she was to me, and I distanced myself to see if that would somehow help m,e because she was always mad at me and I didn't want to deal with some small annoyance. I was jsut tired of doing stuff like this because I refused to give her a tic tac or something, they were always stupid shit like that Kandles500: now emily that all my feelings are out in the open and yours too, that we can somehow fix our broken friendship because I do want to be friends with you no matter aht naomi says? y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I think a night's sleep is in order because my brain is oozing from my eyes and ears as we speak. It's.. kinda gross >>;; We'll see what the new day brings, Ms. Bartmon. Kandles500: Ok, sleep well, good luck tomorrow, and emily I mean it, I want to be your friend but let me deal with naomi myself, ok? just please don't tell her what we talked about, I don't want you to get further invloved with it, too much stress Kandles500: I want to talk to naomi without outside influence, is that ok"? y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: I don't see how I'm outside.. she told me right after she head it from her brother. Surely, you can confront her one on one, but she'll probably be trying to acoid you Kandles500: I know, she won't listen to me like you and jade did, that's why I distanced myself but now the pot has boiled over and we all got burned, good night y0ursw33tsu1c1d3: Good night Dandy. o.o |
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a-demons-angel | 12-22-04 12:14am ~yawn~
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| Anonymous | It are Nomi AKA Naomi..*grumble*stupid name, 12-22-04 1:46pm *sniffle*
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| Anonymous | Nomi Again, 12-22-04 1:47pm |
| Anonymous | Nomi Again, 12-22-04 1:52pm P.S.
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Anonymous | Re: Nomi Again, 12-22-04 7:41pm OH yea, my name is there too! =P
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Anonymous | Re: Re: Nomi Again, 12-25-04 12:01am I know, the world would be nothing without your name on the list too, right Keith?
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| Anonymous | 12-22-04 9:13pm Wow. All this drama. Well I miss you guys a lot. Every one. You, Amanda, etc. I hope things get resolved because it sadends me to read about all this disaster. Loves you sweet lady. Night.
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| Anonymous | that girl, 12-22-04 10:54pm Sorry, but I do have some issues with you guys...
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Anonymous | Re: that girl, 12-22-04 10:56pm P.s.s. Just because I'm at a completely different school doesn't mean I should be not included with anything..
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Anonymous | Re: that girl, 12-24-04 11:57pm I love you Jenn
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Anonymous | Re: that girl, 12-24-04 11:59pm PSS...THE LETTER ABOVE WAS WRITTEN BY NOMI..aka Naomi..grr
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a-demons-angel | Re: that girl, 12-25-04 12:55am Hey!
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a-demons-angel | Re: Re: that girl, 12-25-04 11:58am I don't go to school with any of you either
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| Anonymous | shock, 01-07-05 11:02am I remember this conversation, even reading it again, it's strange, I thought I asked emily not to tell anyone, especially naomi about this converasation, it says so at the bottom of the conversation and yet, here it is on emily's journal for all to see! so much for no "outside influence" oh well. I'm not mad, maybe it's a good thing everyone saw it. You know iit's strange, I missed having fun with naomi before I said those things and even now, that she hates me, I miss having fun with her. Everytime I see a pirate or something about the lord of the rings and those actors I always think of naomi. I miss our little inside jokes and the banshee run and all that good stuff. I don't even go to the park unless it's with naomi. Of course I regret saying those things to ceci instead of to naomi, I still hope to maybe talk to her and calm things down a bit. I doubt she'll ever want to be my friend again, but I'd like to be hers. I nkow this sounds sappy but it's true and I'm sorry that it got this bad between us and that emily is mad at me and naomi hates me. It all sucks! I don't have naomi's screenname and I'm afraid to call her, cuz she'll hang up on me and if she doesn't pick up then whoever does will curse at me and then hang up on me, at least that's what I think will happen. I'd really like to talk to you naomi, I hope you won't continue avoiding me, just long enough for us to talk. |
Anonymous | ^_^, 01-17-05 8:24pm well now that everything is resolved, it is interesting to read this Journal entry again. I wish i had read your entry sooner Amanda..or else we would have resolved our problems earlier then 1 or 2 weeks ago.. he he..
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