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| fadingintoblue (profile) wrote, on 12-31-2004 at 11:26pm | |
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| Because I have way too much free time (or rather, I procrastinate too much, it's not like I don't have things I ought to be doing), I took one of those personality tests (meyers-jeung, or something like that) today. Apparently I'm an INFJ, which seems pretty accurate after I read a few profiles. It confirms a few things: 1) There are very few people similar to me (apparently infj is the least common of the 16 personality types, with only 1% of the population belonging to this type). 2) I am way too empathetic for my own good (feeling other people's pain sucks. plus I feel my own pain way too acutely. I feel happy stuff acutely too, but that's way too rare). 3) Apparently my weird strict morals (you know, those rules that govern proper behavior) are shared by other people...of course, as only 1% of the population... 4) Also, being an introvert with a very intense and complex personal life that very few if any other people have any idea exists is just one more thing that ifj people share. 5) As is an ability to express oneself in writing. As I said before, I have way too much free time (or way too much time pilfered from my "busy" schedule). When I wasn't analyzing my personality, I was thinking. I have until Monday to decide whether or not I really want to go on the music trip. I have a bunch of reasons why I don't want to go, such as the long bus ride (I don't take well to being trapped in enclosed spaces with lots of people for extended periods of time), not having someone to sit next to on the bus (especially since the seniors pick bus seats first and none of my senior friends are going...not surprising when you consider that I really only have one senior friend at shs), and not having anyone to room with (and I really really don't want to be placed in a room with people who don't want me there. maybe if I could be guaranteed a room with other misfits...but that would still be weird and stressful). And there's also the fact that spending five days with a couple hundred other people with little to no time to myself doesn't sound great. But I don't want to just not go because I don't have enough friends going who would spend time with me. I've been fundraising for years, plus I really want to compete and see all the stuff on the intinerary and miss school and do all the fun stuff this trip is supposed to have. Gah. I don't want to go and spend the five days feeling miserable and suicidal. Last time I went on a trip without friends to back me up I cracked up within two days. And while spending the entire trip sitting alone in a corner with headphones and a book does sound appealing, I still have to find people to room with. I also spent some time thinking about Katie, and Stina (I am really really worried about her right now), and about my legs, and about those tsunamis in Asia, and about Billy Joel songs, and about five million other things. This is what happens when you don't spend enough time with other people. I think I ought to go to bed. It's late, and I have no desire to see the ball drop, so I should just give up now and stop thinking. I think I've done enough thinking so far in my life to spend the rest of my days eating bon bons in front of the tv. |
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kiwi | ..., 01-01-05 7:26pm You know it always scares me when you say you've been thinking about me.
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