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| smilesideways (profile) wrote, on 1-7-2005 at 2:02pm | |
| sometimes. i. just. want. to. scream. so fucking loud. and i want someone to actually hear me. i'm sucha drama queen. i want to write some apologies right now. to dblock. i'm sorry for alienating me from you. you are such a good person. and i have stupid insecurities that you will never understand because quite frankly not many people do. and i smile when i hear happy things about you and your love. and you deserve to be happy. and even if you don't read this i want, wish i could rewind the last 2 months and include you in my memory. i take all the blame but this is who i am and sometimes i wish that wasn't so. but regardlesss i love you. to dan. i'm sorry i will never allow myself to be the best friend i should be. i know you would never hold that against me because your a beautiful person and beautiful people understand emotion. thank you for every single attempt to turn my pessimitic views into some small ray of hope, you truly can be deemed an angel in my book. my lil songbird <3 i love you xoxox. maybe after i clean out my head i'll realize what i'm searching for. soemtimes i wish that things were exactly how they were a year ago today. and i still kinda wish they were. we were all so happy. soo happy. and now we're all gorwn apart. the table for four will NEVER exsist. for me, it hurts way too much. i'll miss every memory. every last one. from long conversations to endless hours of shopping. my life will always be brighter when the four of us kept each others names on the tip of our tongues. i'll never know what to say to you. that's just how it's gotta end. |
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| Anonymous | 01-07-05 4:06pm you are lovely.. plain and simple
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smilesideways | Re:, 01-09-05 4:40pm thank god for you. |