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innocence (profile) wrote,
on 1-9-2005 at 8:43pm
Music: the killers - mr. brightside
Subject: blahh
well i dont really want to get into everything thats been going on, because it hasn't been that great, and some of it is just too whacky to talk about..

still havent my gift from jim, and at this rate ill never get it from him or my uncle aunt and cousins, cuz at the moment, im not allowed to see any of them. dont ask me why, because i dont even know the full reason, all i know is anything that makes me happy gets fuked up right away.

this weekend was pretty cool, for the most part, hung out w/ lauren everyday and we did some stupid shit haha. saturday was .. oo lets say -- uneventful.

my hearts breakin right in front of my eyes, and nobody sees it happening, and nobody tries to fix it. the first boy who i think is truly good for me, who will make such a wonderful addition to my life, who is truly genuine.. gets taken from me..

not to mention, im in total denial about my mom. i dont think shes dead, and im just now realizing it. i cant explain it, but its like i think im here on a vacation gone bad and shes still at home waiting for me.. then i really think back and realize shes not coming back, so i cry.. and cry .. and cry until there are no tears left, my life is a nightmare

anyways, i dont wanna talk about this anymore, and im trying to persuade my aunt to cut my hair, so ill get going. hope everybodys holidays were good, back to school tomorrow.

its hard to tell your mind to stop lovin someone when your heart still does.. i wish you'd realize im all for you, i wish you'd realize i wouldnt hurt you.. i wish you'd realize that i wanna be with you.. i wish you'd realize you wanna be with me too..

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Anonymous

*LiKe WoaH*, 01-09-05 9:54pm

yooo thiss weekend was wickedd...it wass crazzyy as shitt lol...we were up and down...in and out...had everything turned upside dowwnn...NuTz...i didnt know u were thinking like that about ur mom...im sorryy dani*....ya know im here to talk to if ya need....some boyss just got no gamee...the other one is majorily dumb hahaha....lovv youuu - LaUrEn*

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Anonymous

01-10-05 10:00am

only reason your life is a nightmare, is because you make it that way
and your fucking retarted for going after a guy that doesnt want you, if i respected you before this i wouldnt now
i dont see how you can even say some shit that dumb, honestly your not bad looking and your a cool kid
so you meet a fuckin guy who you think is good for you, and you create all these expectations in your head and they dont pull through, you shouldve known it wouldnt end the way you want it
and everybody in life has their problems, its just that the strong get over shit and learn from their mistakes
your problems arent any greater than everybody elses, so quit trying to make it sound like your life is soo bad


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innocence

Re:, 01-10-05 10:18pm

my life is pretty bad, u dont know the half of it so dont assume you do. u dont know how im treated here or how my new life here is, nd u obviously dont make the effort to either or ud realize ur wrong. and some of my problems do exceed other peoples.. im not looking for pity, but its a journal where i write my personal feelings n yadda yadda.. whatever, i just dont care.

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Anonymous

Re:, 01-10-05 10:32pm

woww dudee...who the hell are youu...you dont know him and odviouslyy you dunno dani* that well either cause if u did u wouldnt say the shit u did...and odviously u are f*ing pussy because u wont even say who u are...first of all how do u know that the guy doesnt want her..she might write that she THINKS he doesnt or what not but she dunno..and what is so fucking dumb about what she said..the only shit i see that is dumb is youu...what is ur f-ing probleemm..id like to see u say this to her facee....she has no mistakes to learn from...she didnt do anythingg wrongg...maybe should know what ur talking about before u open ur mouth..she is a strong person...she never said her problems were greater than everyone else...u are just interpreting it that way because u have no lifee....u life is prob real bad too but that suxs for u cause u prob got no friends to help u out wit it all cause ur suck a dick to ppl...

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Anonymous

01-10-05 10:35pm

i dont understand how you can say you life is worse than anybodys
quit being emo and be optimistic, i have fucking problems also
you bitch about not finding the right guy or something, thats all ive ever heard from girls
at least you girls can find guys, for the longest time i KNEW i was gonna die without ever even having someone like me. i was so fuckin emo i cut myself, i wouldve stayed with a girl even if she cheated on me, i didnt have any self worth. I had my virginity taken by a fucking hooker for fuck sake, do you have any idea how much i regret that?i cant even beleive i did that, and my dad was the one that talked me into it. i did drugs non stop and skipped school, always cried about how bad my life was. I got to watch my stepdad die of lung cancer, and he was more of a father to me than my dad ever was, ya i cried and shit.
what im trying to say is i can go on and on about how bad my life is, but i will never say that my problems are any worse than anybodies, because everyone has problems
whether we bitch about them or not is a diff story

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Anonymous

01-10-05 10:46pm

wow you commented the same time i did and i didnt even get to read that before i posted, well danielle should know it is after my comment just now. and you know its so funny reading your shit because your calling me a pussy because i dont leave my name, like that was the main thing on my mind "omg, danielle is gonna beat me up if she knows i did this so i cant let her know"
my god how did you know
and you were bitching about how i obviously dont know her and i am still talking shit like that, while you are talking out of your ass because you know absolutely nothing about me, you dont even know my name
you put an extra letter at the end of some of your words for god knows what reason, and i dont understand how making me interpret something in my own view makes me have no life
but your right i dont, and yes im a loser that sucks dick compulsively, BUT you dont see me crying about it ;)
and if you read her comment, she does say that her problems are great then others

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Anonymous

wick, 01-11-05 6:35pm

you sound like zac.
that's not a good thing.
you see, zac is a good for nothing ANGRY mother fucker who doesn't want anyone around him happy.
you dude.. are a douche bag.
major douche bag.
annnnnd.. you dont know what you're talking about. you sound ignorant. so get the fuckkkk outtttaaaa herrrrreee!


i love you girlie!
<333333

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Anonymous

Re: wick, 01-11-05 6:43pm

alright i read more.

zac, like i said before, no one cares about your asshole comments.
JUST GO AWAY!!

youre so self absorbed, that you will do anything to make yourself feel better.
you dont mind that the things you say bring people down, put people in tears, and everything.
it makes you happy to know that youre not the only one hurting.
youre a selfish piece of shit, and you dont know when to quit.

we can't help the fact that you had sex with someone, and now you regret it.
dont try to use that to your advantage in this situation.

you're like a leach.
you're trying to suck the life out of this girl..
and you're always around.
GO AWAY, YOU PIECE OF SHIT!

much love,
girl who hates you. =)

ps- go listen to billy joel's 'big shot'
dickface.

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innocence

Re: Re: wick, 01-11-05 9:39pm

heyy babe, thanks for everything, and although zach does say some things that offend me, i know when it comes down to it i love him, i really do. and i dont know why. id be there for him if he needed it, hell maybe what he says is true, i just dont wanna make the effort to argue anymore.

but yea, ur last comment put a smile on my face love, im sooo obsessed w/ billy joel songs, ive been listening to the greatest hits cd for daaays lol. wick i miss u sooo much and ill be emailing soon.. lots to catch up on.

xoxo always and forever
w + d always! <33 love uu

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Anonymous

Re: Re: Re: wick, 01-14-05 8:32pm

youre friends with zac. that's cool. i dont see anything wrong with that. i just hate it when anyone says shit to my friends that might upset them, or be taken the wrong way.. especially when they are in a situation like youre in right now. youre going through a lot, and i wanna be there for you the best i can. i just kinda figured the last thing you needed at this time was someone (friend or not) telling you to just.. get over this at the drop of a hat. it doesnt work like that.. not for most.

i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
xoxoxoxo
<333333333

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Anonymous

who the fuck is billy joel, 01-12-05 9:33pm

awwww tanky dani!!!
and to whitney
damn, i wasnt even talking to you, your so fucking nosy
you cry to much, and i dont think i have ever told anyone anything to purposely make them cry
think of me as a cult leader that is trying to spread my teachings, i just want her to reach the state of mind i have
where death, relationships, ect. doesnt affect me too much emotionally
i live in my own happy little world, i just try to invite someone else
i honestly am just tryin to help danielle
you ever wonder why i dont comment like this in your journal whitney?

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innocence

Re: who the fuck is billy joel, 01-12-05 10:24pm

zach, i know ur only trying to help me, but i ask a few things. i know the state of mind ur in and how ur okay with death and relationships etc.. but its all very knew to me. u gotta understand.. my mom, the only family i felt i had was taken, to have watched her suffer for so long and just leave that quick, it still gives me goosebumps. its just hard for me to accept it right away, especially since now i feel so alone and dont have people to run to, i mean yes i have lauren and i thank the lord i do, but shes only one person and can only do so much. u know i love u, i just wish u could be a little less blunt and maybe talk to meee sometimes instead of leaving comments that can be misinterpreted.. idk lol maybe im making a mountain out of a mole hill?? :-/

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Anonymous

ahahaha i made a new word, 01-13-05 9:49pm

ya, i know
but i just tend to stay distant with female friends, i guess its just how i am
but i do love you and i wish you the best of luck with your shit
i just wish you could get over it all and not be sad about the shit anymore
and the whole leaving comments thing is cause i enjoy it when people like whitney rant and rave about how wrong i am and how much they hate me, it gives me reason to wake up in the morning
ya know cause i get off from people being hurt and all
^sarcasm whickshit

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innocence

Re: ahahaha i made a new word, 01-13-05 10:01pm

lol wow. i know u want me to be over it, its just hard, i cant explain why.. but it just is. i know eventually ill have to get over her death, but its just not happening now. i gotta take it one day at a time..

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Anonymous

01-14-05 6:57pm

yeap thats life

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Anonymous

Re: who the fuck is billy joel, 01-14-05 8:26pm

you dont comment probably because you know that i'd either delete the comments right away.. or beacause you know that my friends would jump down your throat, and you just dont wanna deal with it.
I'M NOSY ZAC?
youre doing the exact same thing. commenting on her journal telling her that her life isnt as bad as she makes it sound. youre just as guilty of being nosy.
think before you speak.

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Anonymous

Re: wick, 01-14-05 8:33pm

"who the fuck is billy joel" ?????
slap yourself in the face!!!!

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Anonymous

01-14-05 11:38pm

god, why do you talk out of your ass so much
i dont comment in your journal because i dont give a rats ass about you, now your getting all riled up and annoying
just drop it, i cant even argue with you because all you ever say is how bad of a person i am or how much you hate me or something
then you start mention my flaws and comparing what i do to what you do to justify your argueing with me in the first place
blah blah blah your a twat for posting anonymous ect.
so ya, if you want to argue with me so much then just come over to my house, my girlfriend can fuck you from the back while you lick my asshole
then chain you upsidedown and put burning candles in your 2 holes till we have to put both our penises in you mouth to keep you from screaming/breathing

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Anonymous

01-14-05 11:42pm

you see this whitney, it was all good
me and danielle were coming to a realization
and what do you do? you try to mess it up or make me miserable
god, i can read you sooo well
boy golly you love to make people mad and opposite of happy, your such a bad person
shittles, taste the asshole
you must like totally get off on ruining happiness, god
fuckin hypocrite

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Anonymous

Re: wick, 01-15-05 8:31am

i dont try to make you miserable. i just try to not let someone else bring my friends down.
go re-read everything. when did i ONCE say anything about you commenting anonymous? everyone knows its you anway.. so why bother bringing up the fact that it's anonymous ??
and zach honestly... you dont make it sound like you have any happiness to ruin. you're always bitching about something. thta's not something happy people do.

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Anonymous

Re:, 01-15-05 8:33am

bitch, you weren't coming to a realization.. you were telling her to just wake up one morning, and totally forget about everything bad that's ever happened.
that's no realization.
dont flatter yourself :: you can't read me for shit.

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Anonymous

Re: whitnaaayyyyy, 01-15-05 8:35am

right... the girlfriend that you only talk to to 'get some'
remember when you said that?? you only talk to females if you think you might 'get some' ??? yeah.

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Anonymous

i snort angel dust, 01-15-05 2:42pm

damn, i was stating that about guys in general not just me
and i also said we talk to girls if we can get some from them, as in i can have sex with my gf, therefore i talk to her
because if she wouldnt have sex with me, then why would i be going out with her?
dont get me wrong, it sounds really mean but its not
i mean would you go out with a boy who wouldnt kiss you? of course not
and your prolly thinking oh kissing is different, no its not
just because you people havent had sex yet doesnt mean its some huge thing, its just another way to show your love for someone
and i was joking about the commenting anonymous thing because people always say then when people comment badly anonymously like everyone has a woohu name, and like they are goijng to do something about it when they find out who it is
and whitney you dont know me, we havent talked in so long and just because i was an emo kid for so long when you knew me, doesnt mean im one now
i dont complain about shit now, and if you could tell me what i complain about then please by all means do so
i dont tell you what you think, i can speculate but i really cant say shit about you except i dont like you
and didnt tell danielle to wake up tomorrow and forget about everything bad, i did tell her she needs forget about though
and she told me she needs time, and i didnt disagree with her, so yes were coming to an end in the dispute
but whatever im gonna quit argueing with you fuckheads in danis journal because its not fair for her to have to see all this shit if she doesnt want to
so if you guys have something to say to me then my username is bunnyinheat on live journal
be fuckin courteous, god

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Anonymous

Re: i snort angel dust, 01-15-05 3:07pm

youre right.. danielle doesnt need to see this. that's why this is the last time i reply to you.
all i wanted to say is that.. you have no clue about my sex life, zac. you sound ignorant making statements like you did above.

annnddd..
"because if she wouldnt have sex with me, then why would i be going out with her?"

why dont you tell her that?

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Anonymous

Re: Re: i snort angel dust, 01-16-05 9:49am

whitney dont even argue with zach, you cant do it
he writes all this stuff and you dont even look at it, but you take one little thing out that is irrelavent to what zach is talking about and you complain about it
did you even read where he was saying how he cant talk bad about you because he didnt know you? that he could only speculate?
read first

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Anonymous

stupid ass, 01-16-05 9:50am

i said post it in my journal!!!! fuckin retard

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