01-10-05 11:53pm

damn i gotta confezzion...evry1 knoz it tho! lol im in love wit lisa...!! ALOT..well 2morrowz my birfh day...holla!..dex

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Re:, 01-10-05 11:57pm

ahhh dex, thats something i think everyone knows.
but im glad your happy and things are finally working out..

IM COMING TO THE WEDDING !!
=] hehe

01-10-05 11:55pm

Your, a sweet girl Ashley.
You have much potential.
You also, are geourges and you don't give yourself enough credit, and i hate that. I dont happen to agree with a few things, between your boyfriend and yourself, but whatever i suppose, thats you i just don't want to see you hurting.
..not that we talk anymore.

i miss that.
Your advise was always the best.
and you would listen no matter what

i need a friend liek you again.
no
i need my friend back. you

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Re:, 01-11-05 12:00am

t h a n k s ...
=[[ im sowwy.

..<333

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01-11-05 12:19am

When I was in elementary school, I played the violin. My music teacher pushed me to be tha best I could be. I was amazing at it, performing solo*s in front of audiences at every concert we held. I practiced religiously after school. My mother got me a private violin tutor. I practiced long and hard in class with my other music teacher. I was so confident when I tried out fer MSOA. I had practiced, studied, and was talented to begin with. When it came time fer my official audition, I froze. I kept messing up. I was so nervous, and I*ll never know why. Needless ta say, I wasn*t accepted. "All tha wasted time & energy," I thought. I immediately quit playing the violin. I haven*t touched one since.

As I*m 6 years older now, I think about how I quit and feel stupid fer letting myself down. Whut a sore loser. Violin was my passion and I gave it up at tha drop of a hat. Maybe, I could*ve been one of tha great ones. I*ll never know.

And maybe it was fate telling me to pursue tha other careers that I had always dreamt of: Actress, Fashion Designer. Of course, not being accepted to MSOA meant attending RMS, meeting tha most valuable people, best friends, any girl could ever wish fer. Best of all, I met my boyfriend. We*ve liked eachother since tha beginning of 6th grade, became best friends, and started going out (fer tha 2nd time) a month and a half ago. We*Re so in love and will probably end up getting married; another reason leading me to believe this was all my destiny.

No matter what, there are many lessons learned from this...

And everytime I hear the faintest sound of a violin, I cry.

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Re:, 01-11-05 12:28am

I feel the same way about the piano.
ii played for years i loved it, something got in my way and i gave it up, i critized and brought my self down.

you didnt let yourself down, because its never to late to pick it back up.

Rms? He whent to RmS? did i ever know him?
gowsh that too cutee.. i hope everything works out. Dont let anything get in your way for him.

Leasons and trials in life make you stronger..

<33

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Re: Re:, 01-11-05 5:21pm

yep, chris vance <3 <3 lol

xoxo - ellen

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Re: Re: Re:, 01-11-05 10:35pm

well DUH !!

hehe i hope everything works out with this one.
and he realy is the one.

<33

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needed to vent, 01-11-05 12:28am

why do you hate me? why cant you just love me..i dont understand both of you treat me like shit..dissmiss my feelings and act like we've never met b4..*first love*...did i hurt you that bad that you have so much haterd towards me..i love you now thats all that matters..we had sumthing and i honestly think we still have something..you are my first love and i'll never forget you and prlly wont ever get over you...as for my recent love...in some ways i wish i never met you..but fate brought us together when we were little ..you hurt me so much the thought of you or even hearing your name makes me sick and makes me regret falling in love with someone so selfish and dishonest..ive been fooled by love b4 but i thought you were different..i just dont understand why this is happening ive told you how i felt and nothing...*theres an empty void inside me*...i just needed to vent ...id like to thank ash-lo for this quote..i love it and it expresses how i feel bout those 2 ppl ive fallen in love with....***Love isn't about the hugs and kisses or the I miss you's
it's about those butterflies you get and the chills
that run up your spine :  the pain that hits every
inch of your body --> when he walks away from you <3***
to the ppl i love..wheither or not you see this that fact that its out and on paper helps me...





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Re: needed to vent, 01-11-05 12:31am

<33

im sorry they Hurt are hurting you

you can vent to my journal anytime ;]

and i like my quote too !!
hehe

<33

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HeY AsHlEy, 01-11-05 1:27am

Hey Ash,
I think you know who this is after you read this but yeah... anyways... i fele that we have grown apart not that we were ever really close but you were someone i could go to with my problems and someone i thought that actualy cared but now, i don't know it seems like you dont care and seems liek you avoid me but i guess you ahve your reasons yeah i may not know why but it's ok, i just wish that we could actauly be friends again and hang out, i remember when you went to lake worth you helped me out so much and i thank you so much for that. i could tell you anything and when i was down you were there and when i was happy you were there smileing with me. Ashley i thank you so much. you truely do mean alot to me. and i'll always be here for you if you ever need me (probably won't but i'm still here) lets be honest here ash... almost eveyrone in our school used to like you any guy you met used to liek you because you were so damn pretty... but i didn't at first i thought of you as a good friend and not getting in your pants or shit like that and you knew that... then actualy i got to know you more and share my problems with you and kne wyou were there to help me and i actualy started to liek you... i knew i didn't ahve a chance with you at all so i never told you but there... and i just hope we can be friends again... i just wabt to say thank you so much for eveyrhting ashley you truly are a wonderful sweet girl, and i'll always love you!

( i knwo this thing says "Anonymous" but what do i have to hide)



Your friend, Jason

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01-11-05 1:40am

I feel like i'v grown apart from the world, latley iv been a nobody.

but im still the girl you knew. im still willing to open my arms and talk to you help you.im not avoiding you.
Between work, a different school and the whoel cancer thing, lifes been crazy, hard to find time for anything.

I remember walking into to Landings and id flop into my seat put my head dow and try to pout but youd poke me and make me wright our lil notes. =] you would always push me to think higher of myself , and help me realize more and more. We had our "daily note" and Ladning said, even tho he didnt care and let us get away with anything.

I still beloeve it was because you were on the team, and he knew i was friends with everyone on the team but, who cares why !!

All i know is you have helped me through whole bunches
of stuff, and i thank you as well.Im Sorry we whent sepreat ways when i left Lake Worth, but that dosent mean im not here.

.. your right i never knew that.
and thanks <33

01-11-05 1:31am

i have a confession ..
im falling for a gay man
no body knows ..

i duno what it is about him
hes not the paticular guy
i would go for at all ..

but his laugh .. ohh his laugh
its contagious and when ever
he enters the room i get cited
and when i know hes watching
me i get nervous ..

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Re:, 01-11-05 10:36pm

well disscuse this more in person.
FO SHO!

but i <3 u!!

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Re: Re:, 01-13-05 1:18am

< discussed >

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01-11-05 8:25am

like, there are 3 girls that i absolutly dont know what to do, they are sluts, the complete opposite of me. they like my boyfriend.... and im scared bc they are like so much prettier and more popular than me and he doesnt know it bothers me, and i want to like kill these chicks but how do i tell him? and ahhh

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Re:, 01-11-05 5:27pm

i doubt they*re prettier than yoo. especially on tha inside.

if it*s really buggin yoo, ask him whut he thinks of them. tell him yoo dun really like them. don*t sound like yoo*re accusing him, buh make it an open discussion.

i doubt he*s thinking of any of them. remember :: he*s with yoo.

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Re: Re:, 01-11-05 8:46pm

ahhh, thats the bad part, i dont know them!!! i've heard of them from others and seen them, never talked to them!!! I HATE what they try to do to him and what they say to him... but i only found those out from others he never says anything to me about it!! ahh
fdjgkjfda
lol
thank you for your advice <33
i appreciate it so much

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01-11-05 6:30pm

seems liek a lot of your comments are from people that 'youve grown apart from' or are 'avoiding' ...............
ouch!

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Re:, 01-11-05 10:35pm

i love IP adressed =]

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01-11-05 10:42pm

i heart ryan b..[[l0l]] but i h0pe we get as cl0se as we were back in the day!! th0se were the days + y0u kn0 it!!
that's wen i had my first black b0yfriend [[darryl t.]] went d0wn hill fr0m there!!

l0ve ya!!

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Re:, 01-11-05 11:05pm

hah. darryl thomas.
corderro
markeeee
sherod
quemane
haha all all wonderful friends mwaha =]]

<3

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01-11-05 11:35pm

*` ashh -
even if our days are packed with shit to
do .. leaving no time for friends .. well
never grow apart !! i lovee you !!
` youre the best broo ' lol !! fo sho fo sho

( i understand )
- it gets hard when you move away from your old
friends .. shit happens + life never stops !! some
times you just cant keep up .. much less go back ..
but theyll always be in your heart

<33 kRis
- black hearts are bad luck =]]
[ i know i already posted .. but i had to do it
again ;) .. bc who ever that was .. didnt sound
very nice .. gota set the record straight .. sorta ]

lol i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
ashhhhhhhh !! fo eva - fo sho !!

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Re:, 01-11-05 11:40pm

FO SHO FO SHO !! =]
mwahahah.

i love you too !!<33
fooooo evaaaaaa =D

black hearts = yuckkieee

hehe i love kris fo eva fo sho =]

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01-11-05 11:53pm

Ashley, ill always remeber you.
more then youll ever know. you were the one who brightend everyones day, even when her own wasnt worth a thing.
your a wonderful smart beautiful girl and dont let anyone you date, or become friends change you

i love you!


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Re:, 01-12-05 12:09am

Im Glad i Could make someone smile

<3
=]

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Re:, 01-12-05 1:01am

fo sho fo sho
totally agree
lol

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Re: Re:, 01-12-05 1:02am

lol you my dawg =]]

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Re: Re:, 01-12-05 9:07am

bRoOo - yOu aLways keeP me smiLin` // LauGhin`
- yOu knOw ..

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Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 1:48pm

aww thankies babe =]

i loveeee you..

..krystina's like awww "shes" so sweet
she likes ya too and awants to hang out =]

hehe

<33

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Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 1:49pm

FO SHO !!!
=] heh

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Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 4:50pm

fo sho fo sho .. def hang out a - sap !!

- goin to practice .. ill talk to you when i get home !!

iLy Ox
kRis

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Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 4:51pm

oh yua ..

i like her too lol

muahhhhhh
hugs + kisses

- kRis =]]

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Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 4:51pm

oh yua ..

i like her too lol

muahhhhhh
hugs + kisses

- kRis =]]

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 4:52pm

oppss i duno why i did it twice lol

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 11:15pm

cuase you a lOser <33

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 11:44pm

thats not very nice ashh e ley

take it back .. or else ;]

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 11:46pm

just for that ..
you get black hearts
<33333333333333333333333

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 11:46pm

just for that ..
you get black hearts
<33333333333333333333333

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 11:46pm

wtf lol !! it did it again !!

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 11:48pm

[[ crys ]]

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-12-05 11:49pm

DOrkk

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-13-05 12:00am

neRd !!

- green cuz its ugly !! hahahh

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Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-13-05 12:04am

eww yeapp

!!

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01-12-05 5:58pm

0mg member shanard[[fine ass]]..well i p0pped kissed him back in the day..that made me super happy[[l0l]]!! i l00' 0ur sch00l ghett0 it was th0[[devils]]!! member the band?? i c0uldnt play the flute f0r shit...0 yea markee[[eeww..]]he came t0 a sant. game + tried startin' shit wit ryan but sh0rtly backed d0wn[[ha]]!! d0 member c0rredr0 he always t0ld me i was gunna have his baby..but i bet n0w he's g0t like 2 girls pregant[[l0l]]!!member that stupid dress c0de + dr.cr0tchfield[[lma0]]!! i liked mr. th0mps0n better!!member casey kelly he's still my bestest friend but i havent called him lately[[0pps.]]!!that's mem0ry lane f0 shizzle..

@m@nd@ + ry@n
w0w we made it thr0 thickin' thin + d0 i mean thick + thin!! but i believe since we made it thr0 that we can make it thr0 anythin!! he want's me t0 m0ve in wit him wen i graduate that's a g00d sign ight?? i met his parents//br0ther//half br0ther!! + he t00k me d0wn t0 were he used t0 live[[palmpen0,,didnt spell it ight]] + t00k me t00 his grandma's h0use his elementary..everythin, that's an even better sign, ight?!? 0mg i l00' that b0y

y0u kn0 wh0 this b...[[hey g0tta talk t0 y0u s0 make c0ntact asap]]!!
i l00' y0u

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Re:, 01-13-05 12:02am

i kno ahh i was obbsebssed with sherooodd
hows casey ?!!?

Im trying to get in touch , but your not IMing me backkk

=[

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Re: Re:, 01-13-05 3:21pm

i p0sted it... but if y0u want muh number it's 329.1430

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Re: Re: Re:, 01-13-05 10:02pm

sounds good =]

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Re: Re: Re: Re:, 01-13-05 11:43pm

n0 m00re pr0blems between me .n. kRis[[yay]]!! it's funny we are al0t alike but hated each0ther!! i h0pe this time the peace is f0r g00d!! w0w that made a g00d endin' t0 a r0ugh day[[sighs.]]!!

@m@nd@



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