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| skippi16 (profile) wrote, on 1-11-2005 at 9:54am | |
| Current mood: scared Music: something i dont know Subject: Where has my world gone? |
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| i thought i was done with all this but it keeps agging me on. deep inside it calls to me to do it again. even though i promised never to go near it again. last night it came and went. and the tears are still with me but refuse to show. why do i feel like this and why are these scars the only thing i can look at?.... besides this tj is gonna be angry with me, james is gonna tell on me. they dont realize what me and holly are and why we do what we do. its how we live and ther is no changing it.... i dont think i ever can... i know its bad and i know its dangerous but what else is there??? NOTHING. nothing but an empty life and a few meaningless tales. how am i supposed to feel love when i can't even feel this? its a numbing thing. i can't feel it when i do it and it makes it all good. if i cant feel it it means its not really there right. just like santa. but i love tj. i truly do and idont want him angry but i dont know what to do. im addicted and im stuck. | |
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sexkitten | I feel it too, 01-11-05 10:11am OMG erin, his journal is heartbreaking and I think I'm gonna die! He just doesn't understand and how can I make up this? I know it hurts him, and I hope I can take away the pain I caused. I'd rather feel it than him... |
skippi16 | Re: I feel it too, 01-11-05 10:13am holly he loves you soooooo much i see that in him... i know he wants you to stop... really bad... we need to... at least try...has he told tj??/ or is he? |
snowman | Re: Re: I feel it too, 01-11-05 12:37pm yes please stop it hurts me soo much, and TJ prally wont show itlike me but i think it will hurt him just as much |