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| xsilentxsuicidex (profile) wrote, on 1-17-2005 at 8:05pm | |
| Current mood: Shitty. Music: Mary J Blige ft. Ja Rule- Rainy Days Subject: Whenever the sun shines bright, it gets so cloudy. |
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| Keely just left. I started crying. I don't know why I don't want her to see me cry, but I don't think she ever has... *sigh* I've cried so much today and last night... For a while I had myself convinced that nothing could mess this up, and that I would actually be happy... I can't really eat... Carly and Keely kept trying to make me, but whatever I did eat, feels like it's coming back up soon enough. I feel so nauscious. I don't know what's wrong... It's never been this bad before. =/ I wish I knew more details, but I don't. Just yesterday I was thinking about how no songs made me cry anymore. Heh. Man, was I wrong... I don't think I've heard a song today that didn't make me think of John. Everyone around me keeps telling me things will be okay, and as much as I want them to be, I don't think they will. Part of me is saying that things might go back to normal, but subconsciouslly, I know it probably won't... and it hurts really bad. I don't pray much... But I have so much in the past day... It's scary how fast things can just change like that... It really is. School is going to be Hell tomorrow. I'll probably end up leaving. Teachers can kiss my ass if they don't like it. I'm rambling an awful lot. No one really reads this, though... So I guess it doesn't matter. I couldn't sleep last night. I doubt it will be any different tonight. John left his charger, so there goes that... I don't even know what I'm saying anymore. I can't hold back the tears, and it sucks. I love you, John... Even though you probably won't read this anytime soon.... You mean so much to me... |
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Bryan | 01-18-05 5:02pm I read it.
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CallistoMoon | ;_;, 01-18-05 5:05pm Dana . . .who knows what will happen? I've tried to be a good friend and telling you it'll be alright, but your right, it may very well not be. But eventually . . .even if it doesnt, it'll be ok. It may take sometime . .but it will. I swear. It could always be worse . . .John could be dead right now or something. You have to be strong, not only for yourself, but for us. Yopu mean alot to me Dana, and I don't want you to be sad, but I know you will be until everything evens ouot. Until then, you know I'll be here for you. :)
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| Anonymous | 01-18-05 5:18pm ; ;.. That's so sweet. My little sister is all grown up and in Wuv. ; ; Things will get better, they always do. Look how fuct up my life has been lately, and it has came out really good in the end. It's alright Dana, and please.. Do try to eat something. I wont have you getting skinny, damnit. >=O Lol. If you want, I'm always here for you to talk to, just IM me.
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