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| xsilentxsuicidex (profile) wrote, on 1-19-2005 at 8:16am | |
| Current mood: Heartbroken. Music: Shinedown- 45 Subject: Swallowed by pain, as I slowly fall apart. |
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| So John's not coming home. And when I talked to him, I didn't get to tell him I love him. I kind caught up in my throat, and he just said bye, and hung up. =/ I didn't sleep well. I cried for a really long time, and I think I kept Carly up. I'm not going to school today. I wouldn't be able to pay attention. Plus, I keep getting really nauscious. I don't know... My parents keep telling me everything will be okay. My dad has a case up in Virginia and he said he'd take me to go see him if I wanted. I can't wait until he gets his charger... I need to talk to him. *sigh* So, here I am at home... Left alone to dwell on it. Maybe I should've gone to school... This might not end very well. Edit- 10:55 AM- *sigh* The one thing I've wanted so bad for so long... Whenever I finally have it, it's gone. I hurts really bad... He's not coming back, and I can't do anything about it... I fell asleep and woke up like 4 times now. It gets harder to fall back asleep each time, and it hurts to wake up. Even the nightmares make me forget that you're not here... Edit- 11:44 AM- I keep wondering what's going to happen next... And I know I've said it before, but I truley mean it when I say I will wait for you... Even if it is forever... I mean this with all of my heart. You are my everything. |
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| Anonymous | 01-19-05 8:01pm Aw.. god. Dana, I'm so sorry your feeling bad. I really wish there is something I could do. Ha! wait, I know. If you don't cheer up soon, I'm just going to randomly show up on your door step and hug you for eternity until you feel better.. *Laughs gently.* Please cheer up a little, you'll feel better soon, it's just a phase.. Your first real love hurts alot.. I know, I've been through it to. Tell Eli, Carly, and teh Parents I love them, and miss them a bunch. Hopefully maybe I can come down next time an event comes around, and we can hang out some.. get your mind off this a little.. *Smiles*
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blackecho101 | 01-21-05 12:52am maybe if i talk to my brother u can spend a weekend up here, idk, ur dads gon need to give u the ride though, idk, i love you? yes, ill see about this, he allready said randy can come up, but thats difrent since he wouldnt wory about me fucking him... lol.... |