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| Beagle147 (profile) wrote, on 2-1-2005 at 5:50pm | |
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| I found out...oh, about half an hour ago that my grandfather died this morning. I've decided to stop using the line "funeral's on Thursday" as a joke. I haven't really had time to "feel" anything about it. I mean yeah, I'm sad that he's gone...I haven't cried though. Is that normal? Don't people usually cry? I didn't really cry when my grandmother died in 5th grade. Not until after the funeral with my cousin. He's being cremated. No grave. Dan Myers is doing the funeral. That's about the best thing that's come out of this. If there is anyone I want to really see now, it's Dan. I'll talk to Ms Youngman about missing class thursday. I don't anticipate a problem. Mr Dalsass will be in Vancouver, so there's no issue there. Calc doesn't count. I also have to talk to Mrs Zacher because I'll be missing the NHS meeting. If I don't bring those tsunami envelopes tomorrow, I'll have angie bring them on thursday. I'm trying to talk will into coming home. He seems to not want to. I think he should. I haven't talked to my grandmother yet. She must be in pieces. She's said my whole life her "plan" was to die before my grandfather. She needs to plan things better. I just don't know what she's going to do...there's no way that she can live by herself and we can't afford to keep having the nurse there full time. And she has no income. She'll probably have to move within the next few months. It's just weird...I'm going through waves of like my eyes welling up, and then I'll just feel absolutely nothing. I'm feeling a big breakdown around the corner. Hopefully it won't be at school tomorrow. It's not like this was unexpected. He lost his mind (literally) a few months ago and has been deteriorating since. There had been some mention of a blood pressure drug that a doctor prescribed him that was not meant for maintenance..but the damn stupid doctor still used it for that. Supposedly after you take it for a while it shoots your blood pressure back up. Side effects include dimensia. They took him off the drugs and did a cat scan, but the results haven't come in yet. Some good they are now... Fragmented thoughts. This is new for me. Writing what I'm thinking is usually my forte. I guess I'm not really thinking. |
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SeraphimRhapsody | 02-01-05 11:07pm Mine died a few days ago. Found out a day later, Katie neglected to tell me.
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beagle147 | Re:, 02-03-05 1:49am Yeah, I read about your grandfather.
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SeraphimRhapsody | Re: Re:, 02-03-05 9:28pm Eh.
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| Anonymous | 02-08-05 8:08pm *GASP*!! I had no idea! Im so sorry *tear*
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