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| speakyourmind22 (profile) wrote, on 2-10-2005 at 1:18am | |
| Current mood: worried Music: Gavin Degraw Subject: Iam gonna love you more than anyone...how fitting |
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| Well i cant say this is going to be a rant. but a deep thought. I laid down to go to sleep last night and that is the time when all my thoughts come. i know its a shitty time, when all you want to do is sleep, b/c you have to get up in 5 hours and go to class...ok maybe there might be a little ranting. but here is what i was thinking about. i know its the most random thought, but with the great commercial holiday coming up...Valentines day...i want to talk about love. I don’t have any personal experience in this department, but i consider myself intelligent. And one day. Hopefully and truthfully i will be in love or feel love in my life. But i was thinking...ok i need stop ranting to get my point out before all of you stop reading! so here it is: Is it possible to be jealous of someone you don’t even know. i mean you don’t know this persons name let alone who the are, and the bad thing is you don’t care…ok quick break...(THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ANYTHING,ANYONE, but possibly as specific time! but ok) What if you never spoke up and said you liked someone or that you have fallen madly in love with the idea of being in love. and that person has no idea, not a clue, and they are dating/in love with another girl. Who you don’t care to know there name, but jealously just takes over. I don’t consider my self a jealous person, but this is a good question (well hell i think its damn good) but ok. you see these "couples" wishing it was you. Then you start to wonder what is wrong with me? What is wrong with them? What do they see that I can't, Or what do people see when they look at me? Then you start to blame them with..."she’s not the pretty", "She is stupid" and the infamous "she is a bitch". Or the other route of "i bet he is talking to her right now, while lying in bed, and here I am in my extra long twin bed in my jail cell...alone. So what makes us women and men start to make up questions and worry about these people you don’t even know? I think the answer to that my friends is jealously another break…(my hair is in my face and i cant see...) ok took care of the problem. So people am I right, or am i wrong? What drives us to think these crazy thoughts at 2:30 am.. write them down in real journals...then have the nerve to write them down for the world to see? Maybe its just me, and i have some deep. And i mean deep seeded problem with love, or I am subconsciously jealous of make-believe people... That my friends is the thought of the week…hopefully the next will be a Rant…for all my rant loving fans…Oh yeah I know people read this so post a comment. They make me feel important! |
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xxinterrupted | Random note., 02-10-05 12:23pm I like your name "Speakyourmind". |