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xsilentxsuicidex (profile) wrote,
on 2-19-2005 at 10:26pm
Current mood: Meh.
Music: None. Speakers don't work. :(
Subject: "This autistic kid barks at me sometimes..."
Today was all right. I went to Bethany's house. (: I missed her a lot. It was good to see her, though... Even with all the awkward silences. Haha. Andrew is pretty cool, too.

I came home and talked to Aisha on the phone for a while, then went over to Ryan's. The Pistone's are in town, so I got to see them ^_^ Yay. But, I felt really out of place with Carly and her friends. I've become so distant with all of them. Even Cameron. He used to be one of my best friends, and he'd be over at my house all the time. Now, he got a girlfriend, and became closer friends with all of Carly's friends. It's sad. I hate losing friends... I don't know if I should go to anymore of Carly's friends' things... I always feel out of place now-a-days... I usually end up sitting somewhere by myself, not talking to anyone. It's become really pointless to even go, I guess.

I miss John so freaking much... When I was at Ryan's house... Mr. Brightside came on, and my heart just started racing. (That song makes me think of him, and it's his buddy alert on AIM...) It made me realize how much I really missed him. By the end of the song, I was nearly in tears. I love him so much...

I think that's a sufficient entry. I hope Aisha can come see me tomorrow. Voyager's concert tomorrow. I'm excited. And yes, I AM a loser.
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Anonymous

"wonder what'lll happen when you bbark at the kid?..", 02-20-05 8:19am

mr.brightside....thats a cute song...hope you feel a little better w/him farway.... : / i think the plan now for when ever us to hang out is to not tell mom-u-lator..cuz wow ..it worked foronce (us haing out)...yeah...akward silence..ug....hate that ..oh well..
~beff-nee

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