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| spud (profile) wrote, on 2-24-2005 at 3:24pm | |
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| yeah. summer talked to me yesterday. that was interesting. i felt really bad, like i should have been more of a help, you know? i mean, out of anybody around, i could have related the best, and i still didn't know what to say. it's just weird. there's no better way to describe it. and i can't honestly say you ever get totally used to it, but there is a sort of gradual accustomization that happens. but it's never quite gone. i don't know. i just felt like i could have been more comfortable about it. and offered to get together and talk sometime ... i mean, if she wanted to. but i've never really been too familiar with her, so i don't know what's too forward and what's acceptable. i suppose i'm overthinking the whole thing. i'm super-paranoid nowadays, especially around girls (yes, even moreso than i used to be!). it's sad and pathetic, and i need to do something about it, but there you go. one more thing that i really don't feel like taking care of at the moment. college update: looks like GRCC is gonna be it. i figure on transferring out for a bachelor's degree, but it really all depends on what i intend to do. the primary reason of picking CC is this whole recording arts business. i've scheduled a meeting with Joe McCargar of River City Studios Ltd., next week thursday. hopefully that will solidify the long-term picture a bit. i guess Tim Heldt is teaching the recording program at CC, which would be way hella cool. i haven't seen him in years and years. i can only imagine what lindsey and brennan are like now. it's been a long time. it's almost like a different lifetime. weird. of course every thing seems weird now, that i can recall from my middle childhood, anyway. something snapped during middle school, and i literally became someone else, just with a bunch of lingering idiosyncrasies. it's strange. but yeah. that's all i've got for now. band concert tonight. i hope i do well, more than usual, just because i enjoy my part on Wabash. i find it challenging, but fun. however, i haven't been doing too well in rehearsals lately, so hopefully i'll nail it tonight. talk at y'as all later! |
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cowsgomoo!!! | 02-24-05 3:48pm good luck chris |