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| dakishime (profile) wrote, on 2-27-2005 at 12:01pm | |
| Current mood: sad Music: The video thing that Kikyou posted about MARS. [= it`s a DANDY song Subject: I LOVE YOU. <33~ |
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| yeah . can`t upload any icons since stupid photobucket rebuilds their disks i sound so frikken smart. ahh. yeah I keep on saying yeah. well `nyways it`s sundae o_o one day before school starts agen; `nd half a year passing. D;. but i`m not gonna cry. at least not in the open like right now. maybe tonight at 11.05 D; he left so frikken early in my life. i mean he doesn`t even get to see my brother graduate from school for the first time. I mean he never got an education so he would be really happy to see us graduate. but he doesn`t cause he left. and I hate it. i realized that when I was little, I used to hang out with my aunt a lot. but when i`m not with her I`m always with my dad. and as I grew older, i never spent that much time with him. I mean people say that i`m so happy, that i act that my dad passing away doesn`t even bring a burden to my heart. but it does. I can say my dad passed away so easily but if I really think about it . I`m alone and i`m looking for him. i`m always thinking. where is my dad ? why isn`t he here? and then I remember. that he`s gone. that i`ll never hear his voice again. I mean a lot of people dad passed away. but that`s mostly because they were old or because they grew up and had their own families. but i`m still a kid. and I still need him. none of my friends know how I feel. I never tell them. all they know is my happy side the side when i`m smiling and happy and hyper. but i`m not trying to sound like i`m a frikken emo kid or stuff like that. it`s just that. I feel that I can`t talk to anyone because noone knows how i feel. and they don`t understand. and i have to keep everything inside and it kinda hurts but i`m not going to frikken suicide for it. o_o but i`m okay now. this kinda hit me harder than i thought because I told myself that i wouldn`t cry. but i did )= the only thing that I could say in the hospital when seeing my dad for the last time was i love you, daddy over and over again. and I truly mean it. [= with all my heart and i always will. (; |
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Kitsune | 02-27-05 3:15pm -patpatsnug- wow. that must be tough DD': I wouldn't know how you feel, because noone really close to me has ever passed away, but I can understand your pain. ): -snug- |
DisturbedDragon | 02-27-05 5:16pm Aww Saki. @_@ -patpatpatpsnusgnusgn- |
pillow | Indeed it's a dandy song. <33, 02-27-05 6:20pm Yeah...sometimes I miss my dad...and step-dad. I cry sometimes thinking of random stuff. Good things, actually.
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mieko | Re: Indeed it's a dandy song. <33, 02-27-05 6:26pm Aw. -huggleglomp-
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savorem | 02-27-05 10:06pm -snugs- <333 :D We are here for j00, Joobei.
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oceanchild | 02-28-05 1:19am I know we don't know each other, but since I've been down this road before, and what you're saying sounds so much like what's happened to me, I wanted to say something at least. I'm really sorry about your father. And I'm glad that you got to tell him you loved him. That's always the most important thing. Keep on keeping on, that's all you can do. |