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| kreyz (profile) wrote, on 3-4-2005 at 9:57pm | |
| Current mood: pissed off Music: Jumpsteady - Ima |
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| Ok, right now i'm pissed off with a vengance, but i hope to calm the fuck down cuz i don't wanna fuck up the people upstairs... who i'm not really pissed off at. Work blew. I had to chop ice off the overhangs... that takes forever, and its bad enough i have to do that while Brian and Tim drive around in the fucking truck all day tagging cars that haven't moved in a while, but I have to work with Chad, who won't shut up about his marriage problems... Just take your gun to her temple and shoot, bitch, and get the problem done with... I took an hour and a half long lunch, and played it like it was just an hour long... i'm good at that cuz i think my boss no longer really gives a flying fuck about what goes on anymore as long as a little bit of something is done... meh. I hope that midget chokes on a dust bunny. I wanted to have the girls in the office listen to my beats, but no, they had one customer come in and stayed there for a fucking half hour, and by the time she left, it was 530, i had bowling, and two more customers came in once this first bitch left... fucking God i was gettin' angry, cuz the one girl in the office that hadn't heard my shit has been putting it off for over a month and tries to blame it on her fucking "schedule." Bitch, its a CD... put it in your fucking CD player and when you're driving from home to school and from school to work, BUMP THE FUCKER! ITS ONLY 30 MINUTES LONG! EVEN LESS THAN THAT! Fuck it, i'm gonna make people watch my set when Jeremy hopefully gets me a copy of the tape he plans on making of me, Pernod Fils, and Tragidy. Then she'll finally hear my shit. Either that or i'll make sure I gouge out her eyes with the cassette... NOW I get to bowling, and i bowled so-so. 152, 112, and 102. Not bad, but then again not good, cuz of that 102, and i hope that with the 152 that it bumps up my average, which is 112 or something around it... that first game was fucking awesome, tho... i got mad props. The good thing about my friday nights is that a lot of the ladies who bowl in my leauge noticed me comin' in at the beginning of the season sportin' a skirt and facepaint. Even the waitresses. One waitress, who says shes got a fiance (yeah, it shows), says that she wants to see me in my facepaint and shit, but i said not until it gets warmer. seriously, i'm not asking for a small bag of trix in that skirt, motherfucker! Besides, i think that waitress chick just has a crush on my rapper gimmick, anyways... thats about it... the adventure or somefuckin'thing... Then I get home, and boom, i get attacked online by Jess, J-Man's Jess, not Jessika... what about? One of my journal entries on here about what I said about me being a father. What? I do think I would be a good father. Granted the fact that my mom was a little harsh on me, I understand that THERE ARE LAWS NOWADAYS THAT PREVENT YOU FROM DOING ANYTHING TO YOUR CHILDREN! All you can do to your kids nowadays is pretty much time out and yelling, which for some children, doesn't work. Part of being a parent, pretty much, is figuring out why your children act the way they do and figuring out how to deal with it... In a nutshell, she was trying to say that I wasn't ready for children, but you don't really need to tell me because i already know that. I might do dumb shit, but that don't make me stupid, ok? Jesus Christ. But she wouldn't shut the fuck up about it, and I finally said "I don't mean to be a prick, but are you quite done?" I was finished with getting bitched at about something i said a while ago. Sorry, but those are my views, whatever they are, cuz i don't remember what I said... and if you don't like it you can FUCK THE FUCK OFF! Those are my current views, and from what i've figured out, all things change with time... for example? tastes in food. I used to hate all things potato... now I don't mind mashed (fakes or real), scaloped, even baked... I used to like Spinach, now I detest that shit... Popeye ain't shit! And to top it all off, I explain the shit to trevor, and he does agree with me on majority of the stuff... to let you know, i didn't spin that shit around to make me sound right... i will basically say how it is... Even TREVOR didn't know where she was going with bitching at me... I don't know what the fuck was going on... but I think it had something to do with Jess being overprotective about shit i say about kids... and that effects her i guess as if i was doing something to her daughter, Bella. I don't fucking know what the fuck was going on, but I wasn't gonna fucking take it. Fuck that fucking shit... Fuck fuckity fuck fuck fuck... So i stealthed her so I don't have to deal with her bullshit. I don't care what Jess has to say to me, because in my mind, I would make an excellent father in the future... IN... THE... FUCKING... FUTURE!!! I know i would be a complete fuck up as a parent if I had a kid right now... because I'm basically still a kid myself. I act like a crazy bastard, and thats how it is... but right now, i'm tryna find the girl that can help me wind down and have a family with. Thats something i've wanted since I was 17. I just want someone to help me settle down and start a family with. I know it can happen, but apparently, no one else does... even my closest of friends. but FUCK THAT! Do I have to prove it? Fuckin' eat my beans! And to finally get the ball out of the fucking court, I explain it to Tom... He tries to tell me that I could make a "good dad" but I would make a "bad father" right now... so I punched myself in the side of the head and went DUUUHHHHH!!!!! like i didn't know that. As a matter of fact, I just said that. I would make a bad father. And what the fuck is "Good Dad?" Dad and father are the same thing. Dad is just a word that means father, which is just used by the people of our times... Dad and Father are the same thing. According to him, any guy who sticks his dick in a chick and impregnates her can become a dad, but its pretty much what he does that determines him being a good or bad father... Well, if theres good dad, then whats bad dad? A bad dad, then in his consideration, would be a motherfucker shooting blanks, and therefore would have no good or bad father involved, so what he said is basically stupid... Even trevor agreed to that... Dad and Father are the same damn thing... My old man is a Bad father, and he ain't a good dad, to suffice tom... He is a good buddy, but he ain't a dad... I know this, cuz my Mom has even said that, after I told her that was my consideration of my Pop... So I got in an arguement about that, and I ended up finding some headphones to listen to my Jumpsteady CD and ignore that son of a bitch, and all he did was turn off the TV and go in his room... I don't know what hes doing now, and I don't care. I know for a fact that what I said was right. There is no difference between father and dad, same with Mother and Mom. His views sometimes are sensical, but this one was morbidly idiotic... i don't think i've ever had a thought that he would say something so fucking dumb in my life. oh well, he'll get over it, and i have a feeling that over time, he and I will fight over it again... and i'll have to smack his bitch ass to get my point across... Jessika has been on my mind all day, so I'm gonna call her. Thanks for reading my tripe and gimme some feedback, nigga! Peace n Chicken Grease -Kreyz McKormik |
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squish322 | 03-04-05 11:55pm i told you i think you would make a good father..and i do believe you will have a wonderful family someday |
deathstalka | 03-05-05 12:08am Same here man, but you're right, at this point there's no way you're responsible enough for a kid (no offense, there's no way I am either lol). |
kreyz | Re:, 03-05-05 12:49am yeah, i know you're not ready for your own fam either, dickhole... lol |
| deathstalka | Re: Re:, 03-05-05 9:41pm ?!? What the fuck was with the dickhole comment, asshat? lol |
squish322 | Re: Re: Re:, 03-05-05 11:21pm lol nice |
kreyz | Re: Re: Re:, 03-06-05 11:55am you know that i'm messin' around, lol...
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