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| brandnew26 (profile) wrote, on 3-9-2005 at 7:36pm | |
| Current mood: sore Music: explosions in the sky - the only moment we were alone |
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| school is boring. track makes me hurt all over. i'm on long jump again, so far. i've been in a weird set of moods lately. i'll be happy and doing stuff, then i'll be sad, or pissed off. i write a lot of stuff down in my notebook. i'm going to write it here because typing it out makes me think on it more and if i lose my notebook i have it here. first, why do i think the way it do? why do i get paranoid? why do i think everyone hates me? why do i think i am doomed to be alone forever? second, is love something that is intangible for me? is the kind of love and companionship that i want something which will always seem to be out of reach? is it really worth it to try again or even care? i really want to be in a band again. i'm singer than can play guitar, piano, bass, drums and trumpet decently. but i really want to be in an all instrumental band. thats how i want the emotion to come from my music. oh well, i'm a loser and people are starting to think i've really gone crazy this time. i'm writing a lot of "odd" stuff. i like it kinda. all i really want is someone to talk to, who will really listen. someone to spend some time with. i think its futile now. its not like its going to happen now. |
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| Anonymous | don't stop trying..., 03-10-05 6:04pm "so from now on, i'm going to be more confidant. some of you may have noticed a small change in me this week. now i'm going to believe in myself. i'm not going to have anymore problems girl-wise. i'm not going to be a dick or an asshole now, but i'm going to talk to people. a girlfriend will come in due time, i'm not worried anymore. so girls, here is your chance. no more me being all secretive about who i like, if you don't like me, that's cool, we'll be friends or whatever you want. danielle, i like you an awful lot, you know that already but i figured i'd write it in here, now whoever reads this knows. i don't care what other people really think about me now, but if i seem like a dick/asshole/concieded prick, please tell me. i don't want to, i'm still a nice guy, but i know who i am and i'm the same person with everyone."
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