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| wiredshut (profile) wrote, on 3-17-2005 at 5:09pm | |
| Current mood: distressed Music: none Subject: asking people out |
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| OK so for those of you that are observant and that could be bothered to read the intire survey (very few i expect) i spect that you noticed that i left the 'would you ever ask somebody out?' blank. Believe it or not i did do this for a reason, actually several. 1. In a past entry i mentioned that i have a bit of a trust issue with myself well to be honest i don't trust myself not to balls it up. 2. i am am afraid of regection. when i say afraid i mean absolutely bed wettingly, hide behind the sofa kind afraid. 3. i simply wouldn't have the guts. so i hear you say, why didn't you just say no to the survey? the answers are simple. 1. i can't keep MY OWN secrets. ever. so if i like someone it usually tends to get leaked to someone or other. 2. i would ask someone out if i knew that they liked me back. 3. i say i am afraid of regection well considering that i seem to attract it awfully easily! this causes a dilema then because like i said i can't keep secrets and always want to tell the person that i like that i like them which then triggers the regection. so don't tell them you say. see i also said that if they like me back i would ask them out. well let me tell you this is easier said than done because i am shit at reading the signs- i mean shit! i couldn't tell you if someone liked me if my life was staked on it. so help. i really like someone, only one of my friends knows about this so i've actually done quite well at keeping this a secret but i guess thats coz only two of my friends know that i am bi and i wouldn't have told laura but she caught me at a weak moment. so now i can only ask laura for her opinion but shes getting bored of me so tell me what do i do? do i tell the person that i like them which i know is a mistake or not and suffer in silence more everyday? i've just answered my own question haven't i? telling would be a mistake coz i'm almost willing to stake my life that they don't like me, or do they? AAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm pretty frustrated. i'm such a fucking idiot!!!!! By the way 103- i really don't want you to think that i like you any the less coz i didn''t tell you- your like my best friend at the moment but i wasn't going to tell anyone. you can ask laura but shes pretty well trained not to blab (i hope) by the way can i ask you that long awaited question that you promised to help me with...how did you and C get together, how??i find it so hard to even think of telling this person that i like them. Ahhh! i just thought you might think its mira! it's not! |
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| Anonymous | 03-17-05 4:12pm Hello. Surprise, C here! I'll answer that question for you. I realised i really liked Rachelle after a big mistake of kissing another friend and then joking about R kissing me and she did... long story 103- might explain! Well i thought i hate the thought of anyone having her but me... yes jealousy reared its ugly head. So i just asked her out!! She took an agonising week to decide, but she thought hay what have a got to lose. Sometimes it blossoms, sometimes it doesn't. Don't give up! |
| Anonymous | 03-17-05 4:42pm "do i tell the person that i like them which i know is a mistake or not and suffer in silence more everyday?"
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