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| kreyz (profile) wrote, on 3-17-2005 at 6:30pm | |
| Current mood: anxious Music: Avril Lavigne - I'm With You |
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| Thats the song that I been listening to since maybe 2 days ago. I have been driving myself nuts listening to this song because its the song that I chose for Jessika from me. I miss her so much. I haven't seen her in what seems to be an eternity which in return turns out to be pretty much the fifth day. If its only been 5 days, then why does it feel like months have passed by? In my last entry, I was talking about how I was trippin' and all that other jazz... fuck it, if you wanna know, then look it up. My point being is that all of my friends... my CLOSEST friends are commenting on it, giving me some pretty good advice, and most of the time i'll listen to it, half the time I wont. But I've been in this predicament for so bad that I'll take anything I can get to help get back into good graces with Jessika, so i'll try to look that entry up more often to remind myself not to be a selfish jackass around her. She isn't my girlfriend, and as much as I'd like her to be, I have to remind myself that I'm just falling in love with her, and she just wants to be friends with me... right now... But what i'm getting at is while all my closest friends, Jenny, Tom, Trevor... they're giving me this sweet advice... I get an annonymous bastard that says that they think i'm a stalker. Now, only 5 people know that I have a Woohu journal, and thats Tom, Trevor, Jenny, Jessika, and Mary... Jessika won't mask herself, cuz when she does make a post, she may be annonymous, but at least she makes a subject saying that its her. So I can only suspect one other person... so Mary, please leave me the hell alone on my journal and butt out of business that ain't yours. I don't post in your Xanga, so don't post in my woohu. I been playing Pokemon for about a week now, and I have caught 34 pokemon. I believe thats counting evolutions, but I haven't made any pokemon fuck yet. Once I get a Ditto, the massive PokeOrgy will commense... Today is thursday, which is the day that Jessika usually goes to work for her parents at their office, from around 5 to 730 ish. But today, I think she is going to gimme a call, and we might be able to hang out... So far, Its been 5 days like i've said, and I am really starting to miss her. I hope that she misses me too. If we do get to chill tonight, I'm not gonna try to do any advances unless shes the one who does the advancing... well, maybe the cuddling or me resting my head on her, but no kissing... cuz she wants to remain friends, so i'm gonna restrain myself, but kinda also send signals and shit... some subliminal shit... prolly play some bone thugs or something to set the mood, i don't know. Who the fuck knows? I'm a spontanious bastard, i'll tell you that tho... and I really wanna get her something... Something that will show her shes always on my mind from the time i wake up to the time I go to sleep. I got an idea, and DONT GUESS WHAT IT IS! Its gonna be kept secret... Tom was supposed to help me out with fixing my car today, but he isn't here, and hasn't been here since I got home. He went to the bar with his dad, and now I have to help him fix my car in even colder weather. That is some bullshit... He had an obligation to be here when I got home at 445, and help me out with fixing my car, and he wasn't here, so now how am I supposed so be forced to suffer the cold, even tho I had to do such earlier while i was working... I think its kinda stupid, but if he ain't here by the time that I hopefully get a call from Jessika, fuck him. I'm gonna go pick her up... so he put himself in this predicament. Well, I guess maybe not... I been outside for a half hour on my back fixing up my Serpentine belt. and it turned out that it was my tensioner that seized up and that caused my belt to fuck up. Tensioner sounds hella expensive to fix, but i gotta do what I gotta do to get my car up and running again. Well, i'm pretty much done with this. Now all I have to do is wait for Jessika to either call me or get online. Oh God how I miss her so damn much... |
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rissa | 03-17-05 8:06pm I need friends. Add me? :D |
squish322 | 03-17-05 9:21pm i wish you lots of luck |
| Anonymous | 03-17-05 10:00pm ok kev, whatever, i was told to look at this, i usually dont, so fuck you, you haev no right to be yellin at me, dont be gettin all pissy with me, and guess what, this is um , the second comment i've ever left, the other one was a comment on the lyric to mommy dearest, but other than that, this is my second, so i dont know why the fuck youre blaming me, grow the fuck up why dont you, and stop blaming me for shit that doesnt go well in your life. |
| deathstalka | Re:, 03-18-05 10:52am If you usually don't, then why even bother now? |
stroker | 03-18-05 12:14am Dude you can kiss my ass. I offered to help you fix your car because we are friends, I have no obligation to do so. Second I told you I wanted to fix it on wednesday you fucking asshole but somebody ditched my ass. So fuck you, your in this predicament all alone now. don't ever ask me to fix your shit again. |
| Anonymous | Jessikah, 03-18-05 3:53pm Hey hun.... I know everyone is giving you different advice n shit. Maybe you should go with what you need to do. That's why i had a mental breakdown because everyone was telling me what to do and i wasn't listening to what i knew i had to do. And i know sometimes they can help, but either way just do what you think is best. I can't really say much on the subject because we have talked alot. and i thank you so much... last night was fun.... and you didn't try anything... I liked that. I felt like you finally were listening to me instead of letting it go in one ear and out the other like you usually do. But i'll see you tomorrow hun... *HUGS* |