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| mushroomhead (profile) wrote, on 3-19-2005 at 12:01pm | |
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| i hate change, i don't no why i write in this thing anymore, i dont really have anything to say anymore i guess, and its just like im talking to myself because nobody reads it anyways. I think i still write in it because i always used to write in my old one, so its kinda like something from the past that i dont want to let go of. Just like many other things, all i have to do is accept that things change, i just don't want them too. It's funny how music reminds me of things, like trapt reminds me of ryan maclean and his weird friend that was obsessed with me haha. and forever reminds me of katie amanda and kelsey, when we sang thing Howies basement with the poolsticks. and played flashlight tag all the time. Then we met new friends from framingham, like danny and joe ( i saw him last night )..ryan maclean and justin, and we just kind of forgot about howie and them. I remember i was so obsessed with ryan mazlean for so long..haha and we had chicken fights in dug pond..and he had sponge-bob shoe-lases. aw.. then kelsey and amanda got in a huge fight over justin..lol and then i guess when school started we kinda stopped talking to them too. Then..i met ryan f..and if you no me at all, im sure i dont have to say anything about him. When i first met him i was with amanda and he was friends with her and we went to love-sac and he was all juggalo and i was like wow hes odd..yet hot. So then much later on..i was at the mall and he asked to use my cell phone to call his house and i was like alright and that was the night kelsey lost her purse so her and amanda..or kt? i dunno hwo was with us but they were looking for it and i was outside with ryan and then he was like well thanks for letting me use your phone and i was like np. so then i saw him again and he was with his friend sean, and i was leaving so i said bye and then i was going down the escalator and he ran down and was like can i get a hug..and i was like sure, and so i hugged him. and he was like so can i have a kiss..and we were kissing and the mall cap was like come on move along now haha. Then after that night..everything changed, he had me completely, and he new he did too. We hung out alot, and everything was so perfect. Then we got in a fight, and we didnt talk for months, then on christmas he wanted to hang out..so i snuck out of my house wicked late and he had his grandmas car so we drove around..and ya no..yea :)..ill never ever forget that night. We got in many fights..and i used to yell at him about not caring enough, and he always had excuses for being the way he was..but then on valentines day he asked me out and drove to my house and gave me flowers..and we went out to dinner and stuff..<3 Then a few weeks later i found out he was cheating on me with some fuckin slut..who was like 19..ICK. So we broke up..and didnt talk for a very long time. Then at the end of last years school year we went out again..for the longest we ever went out..and it was so perfect..like every single thing was inplace and i didnt care about anything else because he made everything seem right. Then he met some chick lindsey at a party while i was in NH..and i guess they hit it off and went out..while he was going out with me...so he lied to me and said he was going threw something in his life, and he just couldnt have a g.f right now, and i new that he was going out with lindsey..but yea..they've been going out ever since..and still are ..thats mad long for ryan to go out with someone. But i guess im happier now..not exactly, but i no im better off..well i have to go to work n ish now write later. | |
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| Anonymous | i <3 you, 03-19-05 1:10pm aw meg its hard to look back on the past i do it all the time... so much has really changed but we still stuck it out and im always here for you no matter what! ill never forget when me and brian started going out you said to me... i wont stop being friends with you cuz i know how it feels to want to be with someone all the time... and we have just had so much fun together and well have so many more good times in the future
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| mushroomhead | Re: i <3 you, 03-19-05 7:22pm aw :) thank you katie..i love you too :) and im always here for you..dont 4get that
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