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| brokenmentality (profile) wrote, on 3-25-2005 at 4:28pm | |
| i just talked to ryan... i miss him. awwwww. what a nerk he is... :) keegan came over this morning.. the INTENTION was to wake me up... sadly that didnt happen.. he took to long... pshhhh, yeah thats right i said it. he had to leave for their talent show practice. last night we watched secret window... he had never seen it before. i forgot how scary it is! lol... im not kidding.. its scary! im a panzy though.. i dont like blood, witnessing pain, things jumping out at me, or ghosts... that rules out every possible scary movie in the world... i do make exceptions though. johnny movies are ok.. like sleepy hollow... thats gotta be my favorite "scary" movie of all time... its more of a comedy.. te he ha.... yay for johnny. whats that i hear blasting through my house? Shaniah Twain.. i love her. i think country music is by far my favortie genre.... true story. kyle.... grrrr, i shouldnt go there. we're coloring easter eggs tonight.... how exciting.. at the moment we have no living room furniture, or a kitchen table.... we're getting a new living room set tomorrow, and new carpet monday... woohu for us. i do believe im falling into the process of eventually falling in love... and thats an amazing feeling. i dont believe that two people can fall in love in high school... i mean genuine love.. not just a "i really care about you" love.. because you "love" the person that sits behind you in your classes..... after telling myself once that i was in love, and then realizing that i never was, and that it was all a lie.. i've realized something about myself... i'm extremely critical when it comes that kind of stuff. even in movies if the two main chars. fall in love right off the bat, im like pleeeaaaseee.... but i do think, that if me and keegan stay together for a really long time, and keep developing the way that we are..... it could really blossom into something beautiful... because in truth it already is. mainly because he's such a beautiful pserson. his words speak to me... not just because they're his words.. but because he's such an amazing writer, and to me thats one of the most attractive qualities a guy can have..... im really lucky, not because i have him.. and i should feel honored, because that would be saying i have something i would never deserve.. and everyone deserves to be happy... im lucky because not only do i have somebody to care about, but i've found somebody to genuinly care about me. to genuinly take care of me... to carry me through my weakest moments. when i struggle he lifts me up and when he struggles i lift him up. he doesnt just agree with me.... he has his own opinions. i've never experience that before. somebody with their own mind who will stand up for what they believe in, even if i disagree. he's the person that will point out my imperfections... but he's also the person that will help me work em out... the only time he's impatient with me is when he knows that im right about something.... and its the same for me... we just balance eachother perfectly.. and we've never jumped the gun. for how mature we are, and how close we are..... i admire us for staying true to our morals and not jumping the gun before we're ready for a commitment.. because the way i see it, saying i love you is a commitment that you're supposed to live up to regardless the cost.... and i dont think its very likely that a couple of high schoolers can fulfill that promise to eachother. but thats just my opinion... no offense to all you "love birds" out there... thats just how i feel.... once again.. i could go on forever about how i feel about love, but i'll stop here, smile a few more times... and be on my way. |
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| Anonymous | 03-27-05 2:37am you're a whiny bitch |
brokenmentality | Re:, 03-27-05 6:53pm fuck you.
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Anonymous | Re: Re:, 03-27-05 8:49pm you suck dog dicks for quarters |
breezeyluvsu | Re:, 03-28-05 1:49pm Your a coward. |
brokenmentality | Re: Re: Re:, 03-28-05 2:43pm yes.. yes i do.
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breezeyluvsu | 03-28-05 1:52pm I think that its so great youve found something special. Just remember love will bite when you least expect it! |
brokenmentality | Re:, 03-28-05 2:23pm i sure hope so! its great though.. because now im so patient for that day, that moment to happen.....
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breezeyluvsu | Re: Re:, 03-29-05 11:47am Oh you have no Idea. And so many people do it. I try to just delete them, but its sad when i always know who is leaving them for me... Yeah it makes me laugh. |