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upchuck (profile) wrote,
on 3-31-2005 at 11:25am
Well I'm going to say things. And most of you can ignore them, because you all don't post. Now Jessa has been great, giving me tons of material on my friends page, so now I will respond to her (sorry Steph, your life just seems to crazy and similar to mine to say much).

It's really weird how all our lives intersected for that brief moment in time that we call high school. That you, the crazy flirty girl that you described, was who I know you as. The person that you represent in your journal now, it's like someone I wouldn't even recognize. I definitely know that if I were to see you now, all inpregnated and stuff, I definitely wouldn't recognize you. I don't think that the evaluation that you took represents the idea that I have of you. It may very well represent you, but not of the girl who I knew. It was so long ago wasn't it? But not long in time terms. You showed me what platonic love could be. The basic understanding, and empathy for another person. All I could do is laugh when I watched you fall for another guy that I had introduced you to. I see it all now. you talk about Marty's former girlfriends. Sarah and I were great friends. Despite all her flaws, and she had many, we were still friends. And I saw her on Red Flannel Day, and the conversation we had. The evolution of friendship that people experience is amazing. I know my thoughts are nowhere near coherent. BUt they are my thoughts nonetheless. We are, you and I, destined for great things. And for fear of someone taking it the wrong way, it's not about us. You and I even, and that time in high school. It's about all of us, that unique group of people at a time that, even in our foggiest imagination we couldn't imagine the present. Us, me you and Brianna at the lunch table, could we imagine where we are now and what our relationship with each other is. Us, me you and Andy, in my living room while you were trying to bring him out of his shell. Us, me and you sitting in your living room, no words being spoken, but just you understanding the pain. We couldn't imagine what life had in store for us, what God had in store for us. Friends change, but do friendships? I hope I have provoked thought because, despite of scientific evidence to back the claim, it's good for your kid.
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andy

03-31-05 11:43am

I'm still in there. :)

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jessa_lynne

03-31-05 1:54pm

i might be different, but i'm a good kid nonetheless.

i never got to know sarah, really, but i guess she and marty weren't very healthy for one another, and from what he's told me, when he left that relationship he really couldn't stand who he was. i guess it's all relative to the individual relationship. for all i know, she could be the greatest girl in the world, just not for marty.

you know, i guess basically friendship can't change, not compeletly. i feel the same way i did from day one about you, brianna, and andy, although the degree has it's own ebb and flow.

have to go. marty is home...

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liz

04-15-05 7:14pm

charlie, I just wanted to apologize for last night.
The things I said to you were completely out of line and I couldn't be any sorrier. (is that a word?)
Anyway I know that there is no excuse for anything but lately Im really down and softball has been one of the only things to pick me up. getting put in right field felt really bad because it feels like everything that Ive been busting my butt for didnt matter. I know now after talking to coachs' reed and smith that, that is not the case. I was also really upset because I had to sit and I felt like mr. reed was coddleing me. Throw in a large lump on my throat that I dont know what it is, and twice as many hormones as a normal teenage girl needs and eventually something is going to come out. Im just sorry that it came out at you especially the way it did. Ive said it once and Im sure ill say it many times more, you are one of the nicest guys ever and softball wouldnt be the same without you, in fact it would be so much worse, because for whatever reason you listen to all of my complaining and you help me rationalize and calm me down, you do all of this without judging or patronizing me. frankly speaking, Im intimidated by mr.reed, I find mr. smith patronizing, and I dont think mr. wagner even likes me all that much, so Its nice to know that I always have a coach there to help me when i need. thank you ever so much, and Im really sorry.
'ticki

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