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| H2OforDuo (profile) wrote, on 4-6-2005 at 2:23pm | |
| Current mood: crappy Music: Eighteen, Alice Cooper Subject: Meh. |
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| Yea. I'm on birth control now. Long story, may tell it later. Nee hasn't been online or posted in her journal in a really long time. I miss her and I'm worried about her. I sent her a message on Gaia and she hasn't responded. I need to see when her last login was. Nee, if you read this, please tell me if you're okay. I'm fifteen now, as of April third. I got together with Mandi and Jon. We played Smash Bros. for a while and Mandi and I got our asses kicked by Jon. He unlocked Falco, his best character, but I told him that he can't use him against us till we get better. XD He said, "Why not! You guys get to use your best characters!" Quoth Mandi, "I don't have a best character." Caro: x_x\/ Yea. We kinda suck compaired to him. MANDI MADE ME LOOK LIKE A GIRL! >< We went to dinner and had fun and such, but a while after they left I got rediculously depressed and refused to go to sleep. I really don't know why, though I think it has something to do with me not being able to tell mum about Jon and me, even though she basically already knows. Yea. But if I admitted it, she'd never give us any time alone. I really love him, and I love the way I feel in his arms and the way his lips feel on mine. That sounds dumb. I'm still all depressed. I had to stay home school because I wouldn't go to sleep. Yea. I haven't felt like that in a long time. I felt especially bad because I promised Jon that I wouldn't be depressed anymore, and I felt like I was breaking that promise. I know that was dumb and he told me so. When I get depressed I become even more critical of myself than I already am. Yep. Bad news for my self esteem. So basically I've been finding evey little problem with myself and beating myself up over it and just being sad in general and sarcastic and cynical and somewhat irritable. I basically feel like shit. I feel somewhat better right now because Mandi, Jon and I outside for lunch today and sat in the sun on the soccer feild. But overall I still feel bad. Anywhom, love you guys. ~Caro |
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| Anonymous | 04-07-05 8:23pm heyyy.... i <3 you.
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