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| LO (profile) wrote, on 4-8-2005 at 9:55pm | |
| Current mood: frustrated Music: My Chemical Romance- Cemetery Drive Subject: my mother*- |
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| Okay.. i know its been a huge minute since Ive updated this, but like I had this myspace thing ya know? and my mom found out I didnt think it was a HUGE deal but yet again ladies and gentleman she did, she went threw my computer and deleted the page and invaded my privacy i'm going to be 17 in 11 days and she still has to feel like she's in control yeah Ive majorly fuckedup and she wont see past that, that i have changed I dont do half the shit I used to. and shes being a HUGE cunt about it. she tries to tell me that she loves me, but its kind of hard when all my life she's always compaired me to my older sister-Sara. shes So perfect it makes me sick to my stomach. Im the baby of 5 kids and im 16, my moms beein raising kids since she was 21. this isnt fair to treat me like shit, bring me down because HER life SUCKS. it wasnt MY choice to be born. she thinks im depressed well DUH my friend from my childhood hung himself and the boy that i loved was cheating on me i try to not let it get to me as much. but sometimes i break down and cry and she thinks theirs a huge problem with that. i have no way to express how I feel about certian events, i try to talk to my older siblings but they're too busy with their lifes and their families to stop and talk to me. I feel left out, I feel fucking alone. at school I try to make people happy to make it seem like I'm happy.. its true, I'm happier when im NOT at my house. I feel like theirs something missing, and i cant put my finger on it. ONE of the only people that ive trusted in my whole life is moving away to college and that really sucks. because she gives me motherly advice.. i dunno what im gonna do w/o her:( On another note, the exboyfriend i have was a jerkface. so i moved on to a kid whose a couple of months younger than I am and he's so sweet to me<3TDD<3 hehe | |
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kaneface | 04-10-05 3:26pm i'm always going to be here for you magi... no matter what it is or where i go, or how far.. you're the little sis i never had and nothing can change that. |