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| onceagainistandalone (profile) wrote, on 4-10-2005 at 1:01am | |
| i can't sleep. i can't stop thinking about like..everything. i was in a daydream all day...and now when i try to sleep i just end up staring at whatever is directly in front of me. then i get uncomfertable, roll around about. repeat. i really feel that i made a wrong decision in coming here. not just because i lost my job or anything..whoop dee doo..thats number 5 in the past 8 months. its like..i don't know..i stopped writing, stopped reading books, i don't play my guitar as much. its like i don't have heart anymore to do the things i love. now i just smoke pot and watch tv, and it makes me very unhappy. and don't fucking say im not trying. everytime i pick up that pen nothing comes and everytime i pick up that guitar i get so frustrated i just wanna break it cause im just stuck. stuck in this fucking state this room this chair. not like i thought it would be, definatley not worth everything i left. i realize now that all my updates say basically the same thing. goodybye. love, matthew james hinton |
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happygolucky4646 | 04-10-05 8:35pm
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