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| brutisimo (profile) wrote, on 5-4-2005 at 12:20am | |
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| Mmmmmk, its been a while. alot has happened, here goes: My posse left, I had a lot of fun last minute with em though...I can't believe we got Aaron to revert to his former (corrupted) self. i miss amanda a lot, i miss our talks. I miss the boys a lot too...i have to be in my room now instead of going across the hall. i went to the alk3 concert and it was THE BEST. I heart matt, and i got his water from the stage. Molly and I tried to stalk unsuccessfully, but will get another chance on june19, with BT...woot. My mom has also reverted to a former version of herself, but it is not a good thing. She was doing really REAllY well, but we will see what happens...it will probably not be a pretty thing to watch. I am excited about camp. hopefully chip and dan will be there with me. I will miss my other camp people, but life goes on. Sometimes I wish I could freeze in a moment, and somehow save it. i wish i could stay in one place and have that feeling forever. the feeling like I am alive. The feeling of feeling so much that it overwhelms me. I want to feel again and sometimes it seems as though i never will. Like i have pushed things away so much that they can never reach my heart again. I think about camp, and last summer is my ideal. It was the most i have ever been and the best i have ever felt. I love the people who shared it and the memories i have. I think about things in my life now, and there are things that have the potential to make me just as happy, but for some reason i dont let the experiences and people in. I just want to feel again. i want to live. I want to act on my impulses and i want to be happy again. |
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Fanelia | 05-04-05 12:57am I miss you too Alicia. :-( |