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| kreyz (profile) wrote, on 5-13-2005 at 9:06pm | |
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| Ok. Heres the deal. It seems like everyone is talking about me behind my back about how i've "changed." I honestly don't know what is going on and everyone is trying to tell me about this. As if I really have a vivid explaination. I'm blowing up at people for no reason, and I would guess that i'm doing stuff that makes no sense. I have absolutely no explaination for the things that I do, and I wish I could find someone to help me. Maybe i'm just losing my mind. I don't know. I could possibly be going insane? Whos to tell. The friends I have only so far have observed my actions and stuff, and it seems like no one is trying to help. I don't know if even a rubber room and a nice new buckled jacket would help me with this shit. What could be the shit thats setting me off like this? I think my conscious is going into some sort of an anger drive, and its driving me and those around me nuts. I can't explain any of this, and I think that I need someone to do this. So far, i can say that i haven't really heard shit from my friends and my roomates... if the have i don't remember it. Fuck, man. Someone should just take me to a shrink. Maybe they can figure me out. But It better not be some sort of quick fix like Zoloft or whatever, cuz I refuse to take pills. Theres a number of things that have been going on, and I guess that its just too much for me to handle. I don't know. Its been happening since me and Tom moved in together and its just building and building. I don't know what's happening. I dont know if I can fix whats happening by myself. I honestly have to say that i'm deathly scared. You think Trevor had problems with his depression, I bet i'm a far worse case than he is! If someone really wants to help me, I'd say get me a shrink or admit me... |
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| Anonymous | This is Jessikah, 05-13-05 9:54pm I'm not sure what is going on in your head or what is going on with you. I think that something must have happend in the last couple of months that severly changed you and NOT for the better. Like i've said a thousand times you need to think about shit sometimes and you don't. I wish I could help you, i'm not sure where to start though. BUT i'm still your friend and as far as I'm concerned I won't deal with bull shit. If you continue to treat people around you like shit then they will no longer be around you and as much as I hate to say it, that also includes your best friends so think about that hun. |
kreyz | Re: This is Jessikah, 05-13-05 9:57pm I believe I have thought about that. thats whats scaring the fuck outta me, as well as all the other shit... |
Anonymous | Re: Re: This is Jessikah, 05-14-05 2:04pm Fuck you you dirty whore, you ruin peoples lives and friendships |
| Anonymous | 05-14-05 2:03pm Pick something better to hate than anonymous |
squish322 | 05-14-05 4:14pm for one dont compare your shit with anyone else's including trevor's...you dont know whats goin on in his head or how he feels and he doesnt know whats goin on in yours..plus i do believe you need medication for ADD..i know you say you refuse to take and but if you really want help then you will..or this could be just a cry for attention..i'm not tryin to be mean but you made a journal to hear what people think and this is what i think and if you have a problem with it or take it in a bad way then fine you do that but just so you know you say everyone has been tellin you that you've changed..umm everyone isnt one or two people..sorry but thats just how it is..and just so you know the only change i've seen is your music but i know thats for stacy which is fine..but you have always goten mad over dumb shit so thats no change..other people just havent known you as long and whatnot..but yeah |
kreyz | Re:, 05-15-05 4:22pm how has my music changed for Stacy? |
| Anonymous | this is mary, 05-14-05 5:06pm yeah, you seriously need to get some fucking help. and really as far as this new "love" intrest of yours goes, if you "love" her so damn much, then why did you let something happen between me and you after my prom last weekend? dont compare your problems to others, that just goes to show that youre trying to get more attention that you already try to get. and you dont need someone else to get you a shrink, you can get one by your self just fine if you think youre so fucked up. |
kreyz | Re: this is mary, 05-15-05 4:23pm I've already explained this shit to you before. What happened after prom, We were both asleep, and I woke up to see that shit. |
deathstalka | 05-14-05 6:09pm I agree with Jenny. Don't you EVER compare your problems with mine until you know what the FUCK is going on in my head. Yeah, I've said a lot, but there's a lot people don't know, and may never know. And also, if you're so into Stacy, what was with the comment about being able to afford gas and a box of condoms after Tom gave you money to get to Benton Harbor? Yeah, that really sounds like you're dedicated to that relationship. You're not going crazy, you're just getting touchy, just like you do EVERY time you start a new relationship. By the way, saying shit about your problems being worse than anothers is not the best way to gain sympathy, you jackass. |
Anonymous | This is Jessikah, 05-14-05 7:37pm Okay whoever is the anonymous person who doesn't have the balls to say who they are.... you don't know me... I don't ruin people's friendships whose did i ruin? Give me one god damn example okay...yeah that's what i thought.. See your the pathedic one who can't even tell who you are.. I hope your not mary because I really don't need anymore reasons to start shit with her.. I've come to ammends with her and if this is you then you really got more issues then it's worth....
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Anonymous | This is Jessikah, 05-14-05 7:39pm Oh yeah.. and I fully agree with Jen and Trevor... as they are people that know you even better than I do... So I guess you need to stick with their advice... and sometimes pills for ADD and depression and what not are really what helps.. I have to go with Jenny when she says if your not willing to help yourself then your doing it for attention... Negative attention is better then none right? |
Anonymous | Re: This is Jessikah, 05-15-05 1:21pm Cry me a fucking river
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kreyz | Re:, 05-15-05 4:25pm The thing I said about the box of condoms was a joke, man. I was fuckin' around, in an attempt to at least get you bastards to laugh.
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Stroker | Re: Re:, 05-16-05 8:53pm Kev,"The thing I said about the box of condoms was a joke, man. I was fuckin' around, in an attempt to at least get you bastards to laugh."
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| Anonymous | this is mary, 05-15-05 4:45pm the anonumous person that wont say their name isnt me, i dont know who it is. i have the common sense to put this is mary as you do this is jessika in the subject box. i think everybody here makes a good point, except kevin and the anonymous that wont say who they are. you need to get a fuckin clue kev, and quit makin other people's lives harder just to make your own god damn life easier. |
| Anonymous | this is mary, 05-15-05 4:47pm you can say it was a fuckin joke all you want about the fuckin condoms, but honestly, who's really gonna beleive you? |