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xJayk (profile) wrote,
on 5-26-2005 at 8:49pm
Current mood: crushed
Music: In Flames
Subject: I miss Her
God is a sick joke parents tell their children to comfort them so they have something to believe in, just like Santa and The Easter Bunny.
If there was a god my mother wouldn't be living in poverty and we wouldn't have a terrible illness passed to a woman whom devoted her life to her children. She's gone to work deathly ill to keep food on the table. Her eldest daughter wouldn't have to give her shots and hook her up to her IV at the end of the day. She has always told me I should take up drama. I guess she realizes that I am an constant actor. " No everythings going to be okay" and " I'll buy the school clothes and pay for drivers ed, don't worry about it". It may not seem like much but emptying out your collage fund to put clothes on your brother and sister including funds for Drivers ed all add up quickly, exspecially without a job.Everything went from great to well, not so great. I guess thats what you get when you do not appreciate what you have when you have it.
Tonight I think I'll make a wish on a star asking for my mom back..I miss her.








I wish I could wake from this
nightmare
and everything will be alright again...
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tornprince

05-26-05 9:45pm

I know what it means to struggle. I really do.

I could tell you that you're going to be alright, that things will work out and that you're not alone.

But you are alone.

No one can make things work but you. Surely there will be friends to help you along the way, but only you can bring happiness fully back into your life.

That said, please don't ever be too proud to accept help.
Pride is often the eternal downfall of someone.

If you need anything at all to help you along, be it money, clothes, food, a place to stay, I can arrange these things for you and all it takes is you to ask. I can pull your head out of the water, but only you can decided to breathe.

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xJayk

05-30-05 6:32pm

Thank you Sirus, it is always nice to have a reminder that my friends are there for me. I hope I talk to you soon. :)

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