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| whispers (profile) wrote, on 6-2-2005 at 6:22pm | |
| Music: kelly clarkson - because of you Subject: [ new day, fresh start ] |
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| i been hangin out with liz a lot lately, which is cool. i should've done this like.. a long time ago. i was lookin through my contacts in my phone, deleted a good.. half of the people in there. then i was looking through one of my 8 yearbooks, cause stark's a douche and gave me like 8 of the same one. which is ugly by the way. anyway, i was looking through there thinkin to myself "i should really get at some of these people i been talkin to this year." like amanda, dan, keegan, tyler, so on n so forth. tyler put his number on the back of his senior picture, so i should call him up some night and see if he wants to do somethin with a buncha people like.. his girlfriend, dan, christa maybe, whoever else. liz.. keegan. whatever. but when i was thinking all this, it hit me that i think they were just.. school friends. ya know. how often would i really be doing stuff with these people. i guess you'll never know if you don't try. so back to my phone, i deleted a lot of people out of there. half of them i wondered why i even had their number, like janie and brandy. others i just never talk to them anymore. like jill, jacki, tj, jessica nichols. so i deleted them out of there. if they call me, i'll get their number again, but if they don't.. oh well. it's not like i talk to them anymore. i'm gonna start my life over. i'm gonna work my ass off, get a second job, maybe a third, save as much as possible in my credit union account, and get a car. once that's done, i'm going to save again for college. in florida. university of central florida, or someplace else. i'm not even sure if i'm good enough for ucf, but i'm gonna try real hard to get into that school. then i'm going to work my ass off to be.. something. detective, maybe. but then i have to go to like.. the police acadamy and run n shit. i don't run. but i'm gonna work on that getting in shape. i'm not talking like.. a bag of legos shape, more like.. a healthy looking human being. because right now, i don't look it, and i don't feel it. so i'm really gonna work on that. egg salad and subway. and water. that's gonna be my diet. better than mcdonalds and wendy's, if you ask me. um.. let's see. other things.. j. okay, yeah i been talkin to him still, and i.. probably will continue. but i'm not gonna think of him any different than what i thought of angelica. she's.. the girl i been talkin to online for about 10 years, but we.. stopped talking recently. i don't even know why, but we both been busy with our own thing. anyway, j's gonna be my friend. nothin more. even thought it tears my heart in two to know that he's off fuckin other girls and it's.. unprotected sex. yeah, that's.. real great. he don't care though, obviously. so.. yeah. it's his life, not mine. alright, i washed my car, and now i want to go drive around and mess it up lol. i don't know why.. but i do. so i'm gonna. tomorrow i'm going job hunting. still haven't gotten my diploma, but it'll be there lol. - Jejuan |
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