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| sugarmouse0587 (profile) wrote, on 6-3-2005 at 9:51am | |
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| I am going to lose it. Not even joking. I thought things were going really good. I just graduated, I have cool friends, everything is pretty great on the boyfriend front and I thought my mother finally calmed down. But no. Underneath all of that niceness she's harboring her bullshit. I can't even describe it that's how completely stupid everything is. I guess she expects me to spend my whole summer vacation cleaning. That's not happening. I do my chores. I do what she asks me. I drive A-ron around. I only ask her for money when it's totally nessesary. I try to whine less and I don't talk about how I don't love Jesus. I did my invitations. I'm working on the picture thing for my open house.I'm even trying to organize all the photos so we can be a happy family again. I don't get it. and the job thing. I've applied at Great Day, D&W, Meijer, Arbys, Tractor Supply, Movie Gallery, Kohls (twice) Debs, Rue 21, Shulers, and I don't know where else. I've picked up applications to like everywhere in Cedar. Everyone MIGHT be looking at apps in a few weeks. So I go in or call to see how that's going. Oh, still looking. They'll call me. Not. Arbys says my availitbilyt sucks even though I can work weekends and every day of the week, just not during the day on Monday and Tuesday. Meijer? Who knows. Bath and Body Works wasn't interested. To work part time at Kohls you have to have open availability and I was willing to give up babysittting to do that. But now they're not hiring. What the deal? Seriously. I'm qualified and I like working. And I'm getting better. I go to the therepy. I take the medicine. I do breathing. I go into crowds and I try not to flip out. I didn't even cry when she yelled at me last night. I don't want to live with my dad. I don't want to have two transitions this summer. But is that my only option? I don't want to punish my mother. I love her and everything she does. But why can't she relax and just accept who I am, an absentminded procrastinator? I seem to manage don't I? Or maybe I'm missing something and I'm the bad one. I'm lazy and selfish and demanding. oh my. |
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Tails | 06-03-05 11:01am raw deal on the job front and i work at arbys and they never even give me hours during the week. specailly mondays and tuesdays. those are our slowest days....weird. prolly that cock bitch manager GAHAFLKAHDLKFUEI. anyway sorry life suxors sara i still love you. |
.j.e.s.s. | 06-03-05 3:29pm if you really really need a job and if you want me to i can talk to somebody at arbys cuz you probably dealt with phyllis and she's a bitch but carolyn or tammy would give you the hook up.. lol
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phil-himself | 06-03-05 11:45pm God forbid you don't love jesus, no really he did forbid that. I had to throw that in. cheer up sarah |
holiday | 06-06-05 10:35pm Hey you!
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Rachely | 06-30-05 11:19pm If you are still jobless and still want to work at Kohl's they are doing major hiring soon. I talked to the manager looking at the applications and he said you should reapply because he's only looking at ones that are no older than a month. And you still need to have totally open availability. But they are hiring for Juniors... where I am...
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