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| swimfan14 (profile) wrote, on 6-4-2005 at 10:19pm | |
| I thought I didn't like him, but I was wrong. I said I didn't like him, but I was wrong again. He liked me more than a friend but I told him I never wanted to be more than friends, which now I realize is untrue. A few months ago something happened, yes and I thought we were going to be more than friends but then I pushed him away because I said that he wasn't what I wanted and I should have taken Lisas advice, she said I better make up my mind or in the end I wont have either of them which now would be pretty true but maybe I should just tell him that I like him and get it over with. I shouldn't have done what I did and then just push him away. I'm so stupid sometimes I swear but I really HAVE to say something. We are talking right now, so right now would be my chance to tell him. Oh gosh. We are having a bonfire right now and we have people over and everyone is drinking and being all happy while im in the house because my mom wont let me go outside since my room isn't clean and I have someone coming over tomorrow. She says I have to clean it by Monday but I don't have time at all tomorrow and she wont help me put my clothes away either, I have two baskets full and it's just really messy. She came upstairs and was like "this is disgusting". I have clothes and shoes in the hallway by my room..it all leads up to the mess and then I had like 13 cups that I never brought down and then I had orange juice that turned into mold. It's gross but she pretty much is locking me in my room but shes outside right now so nobody knows I'm online. Monday is going to be dreadfull. I am scared of being put to sleep. I've never had to be put to sleep and now im afraid that I might not wake up or something. I have no clue but it's going to hurt like hell when I wake up and I'm probably going to start bawling too. It should be rough but worth it in the end I guess. Jess, we are going to have so much fun if we go and I PROMISE you I wont scare you anymore lol and I promise you our plane will make it there and we will be safe and we will have a blast. I can't wait! I <3 you!! but I am going to clean my room. sounds fun. lots of it. |
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glitterkisses | 06-04-05 11:02pm lol alrighty ,no more scaring Jess ;) We'll have fun! I cannot wait Ash, we'll always remember this! |
swimfan14 | Re:, 06-05-05 10:53am We for sure will always remember this! |