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| breezeyluvsu (profile) wrote, on 6-13-2005 at 4:54pm | |
| Thats it. The cold words you said became too strong. Thats it apologies cant save you now. Youve lost me, the best friend youve had. Its hard to turn your back on the one thing that you thought you could depend on. And its even harder to tell him that i want nothing to do with him. Thats not what i want. At all. I just.. I want to be happy, and in order to live my life and be happy and smile again i need him. That was the only thing that kept me going and now that i completely shut the door on that its like...what do you live for now? He kept me breathing. And excuses. The excuses are getting alittle pathetic. WHen you love someone, as much as he preaches to me that he does.. *NOTHING* should get in the way of that. Absolutely nothing. Ive bent over backwards for this kid and his feelings and his wants and desires. and what did i get out of it? This unrealistic heartbreak. Its like theres sharp objects stabbing into me slowly and the pain is just unreal. I know he can go on without me and he thinks that im doing fine without him. He has no idea that im hurting. Everybody calls me stupid for still holding on but... its like . He has a hold on me. He does something to me that nobody else has or even could. Everything. Ugh everything weve been through was a lie. Him wanting to get back together him not wanting to get back together. Its all.. Fake. And that breaks my heart to realize that. I guess i just dont understand him. I guess he just doesnt understand what i would have done for him. I need to get out of this place. |
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jordanmackenzie7 | 06-14-05 11:22am Everything is gonna work out how it's supposed to. You just have to keep that in mind through all this! Love ya.
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just_peachie | 06-14-05 5:32pm I know I haven't been around lately, and I apologize for that. I've been working on my correspondance and on getting my damn invitations in the mail. I'm sorry I haven't been able to hang out or anything, but know that I am here. We're stronger than this, remember? We can do it! And if you still think that you might not be able to, I have a certain birthday spatula with your name on it! :)
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