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| TaoMan1121 (profile) wrote, on 6-25-2005 at 1:59pm | |
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| I've been paralyzed with indecision the past week or so. Picking a movie, making dinner plans, antagonizing over how to "enjoy" my free time... it's all become a grudge match the past few days. I don't understand; I'm not afraid of making a decision and living with its consequences, but when I become stuck in these ruts, I can honestly identify two polarized yet equally reasonable courses of action. I'm also struggling with the NY thing. Not actually going there (though maybe I should concerned considering the two outstanding problems plauging me lately have been my ability to make decisions/act upon them and my ability to micro-manage my life and the world around me... two traits that will have to be running on all cylinders if I want to survive out there). Anyway, I'm frustrated because the transition is affecting every other facet or my life, either directly or indirectly. It affects how I react, how I plan, etc. and goes a long way to explain my almost obsessive tendency to take advantage of every moment of any free time I get my hands on. I crave direction, structure, purpose, and it's my confidence in finding those qualities in NY that gets me geeked to get out there. It's not that I'm in a rush to leave, and I want to take advantage of the little time I have left here... but being stuck in this professional limbo that I've found myself in since I graduated has taken its toll. I just keep looking for those little moments to hang onto, because I know soon enough I'm going to be too distracted to even notice them. By the way, congrats to Leeder; he just landed a job with an advertising firm out in Cali. Between the two of us, we now have the coasts covered. WE RULE! |
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