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| craziiwhitegirl (profile) wrote, on 6-30-2005 at 12:27am | |
| Current mood: high Music: beautiful girl Subject: Skavenger10: the buz is kickin in |
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| Auto response from littLe biG x kiD: you and i collide...♥ Skavenger10: yeah i knoe sam Skavenger10: WE COLIDE Skavenger10: =D Skavenger10: hahaha Skavenger10: jk littLe biG x kiD: aw littLe biG x kiD: ha littLe biG x kiD: that was kinda funny littLe biG x kiD: but weird at the same time lol Skavenger10: hahaha corkey. and. sam`sam. best friends.♥ ------------------------------------------------ so looks like i started over. for those of you who didnt know, i used to be crazy about this thing. now all that seems to matter is that friggen myspace. of mine. i doubt anyone i know even keeps a journal anymore. or atleast not on this site. but i always like woohu. it was easy to make and idk. just better. anyway. alots happend since the last time i was on this site. i deleted all my past entries so i could forget about all the drama i had to go through to get to where i am today. looking back on that shit. i went through a bunch. it reminded me how fucked up this world is, and how lucky i was to discover that as such a young ass age. sike. on a brighter note. im happy with where i am in live as of right now. i have amazingly cool friends. i have an amazingly great boyfriend. i ♥ shaun and i was able to realize who was worth my time and who wasnt all along. from now on, im not gunna bitch about my daily life in here. i think ill use this for when i need to vent. or let it all out. not many people will read this anyway, so i dont think it would matter what i say in here much. first things, first... --------------------------------------------------- vee, i miss you terribly. me and you have gone through a shittttt load of gay shit. and weve made it passed. i know i was the one at fault for probably causing what happend to happen. but i dont know. i miss hangin out with you. you were my other half. i never had to explain myself to you. you got it. and your the only one out there that can. just get me. if i say "dick" you say "head" if i said "douche" you said "bag". [weird analogy] but it was like that. weve just grown apart so much within the last two months. and i miss the old days. you were a different kind of best friend. not one that made me feel good about myself. or tell me stuff just to cheer me up. but you were the true best friend type. the type who wouldnt let me give up on something that you knew i should do. or if you knew i was wrong. there wasnt a second youd let me get away with it. thank you. and yet never once judged me. cause you were right there, next to me. being just as crazy and stupid. i cant even begin to tell you how much fun ive had in the past four years. our friendship has really had an impact on me. my first reall best friend. and it all started with a trip to the echelon mall. how the hell did that happen? when you told me you didnt wanna be considered my "best friend" anymore. honestly. i felt like wed broken up. i wanted to cry and punch someone in the face all at the same time. it sucked. and what sucks worse now. is that like i said, weve grown apart. if we ever wanna become as close again, were gunna have to get to know each other again. its weird. i dont know i just miss the sam and vee thing. vee doesnt fit with anyother name. and neitehr does sam. dumb and dumber. my other half. the little big kid and the hairy beast. crazy times. great memories. i miss you. <|3 ------------------------------------------- second, shaun. i cant stress this enough. you are. the most- amazing human being ive ever met. you have no idea how fast im falling in love with you. i care about you so much. i could spend all day just sittin with you. on your bed. doin absolutely nothing. and have one of the best days ive ever had. with you, im myself. i can say stupid retarted things. and not have to worry "oh my god. he thinks im an idiot". you know im an idiot. haha. and im glad you accept me for that. i know its only been a couple months. but weve already gone through some shit. im sooo glad weve madeit through. you have no idea. you really dont. your amazing x7689231 and dont let anyone everrrr tell you differently. ♥ i hope this lasts. i could see myself falling so in love with you kid. your really somthing special. oh and by the way, i will beat your spider solitare score. eventually. ♥♥ ---------------------------------------- other than that. nothing exciting is going on. i passed my sophomore year. holy shit. loook out. juniors `O7. we run shit ♥ i did happen to fail geometry. by what was it? oh yeah. four fucking points. tell me how its fucking possible. gay. hopefully i dont have to take it again. well see. im leaving for florida in a week. im happy but scared all at once. glad to see my pops and step mom and brothers. but scared ill miss out in jersey. but thats just the typa person i am. scared that i have to fly by myself again. i dont wanna die. esp. not alone. fuck a airplane crash. i hope i make it there and back safe. mondays fourth of july arleady. tell me `O5 isnt flying bye. im not to sure if its a good or bad thing. like ive said before, well see. so far. this years been unbelievably crazy. no other way to explain it. so much drama has gone down. its fucking insane. just makes you learn more and more about life. and what a bitch it can be... shit happends. the end.♥♥♥ |
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THEhairybeast | hm, 06-30-05 2:34pm i wish i had a big long heartfelt commet to leave like the good ole' days but i dont know what to say. just to let you know ive read it. and ill be thinking about it.
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Anonymous | Re: hm, 07-01-05 12:18pm but you were the true best friend type. the type who wouldnt let me give up on something that you knew i should do. or if you knew i was wrong.^^
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craziiwhitegirl | .., 07-01-05 1:34pm thanks jess. your right. and i love both you guys ♥ |
thehairybeast | 03-28-08 1:36am wow i havent looked at these journal jawns that we PAID to keep in like 2 years. you kno i think all the drugs have made me forget how shit used to be. but its nice to come back and read these t hings and see what we were thinking back then. its nice to see you loved me as much as you did. damn its crazy how life changes people. |